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Dead

2011-10-11T15:40:00.002+08:00

I should have know that things will never get any better. I should not have taken you for granted and take it that you have forgiven me when you tell me that i should start forgiving myself. I seriously do not deserve ur time and attention. You really shouldn't treat me like the past, don show me your smile. I will feel 2 or 3 or 4 times more guilty.

Your constant reminder is good to always remind me how nbcb i am and to trigger the guilt in me. Sorry for taking you for granted. Allow me to feel that i am a jerk and not someone who is suitable for you. Someone who don deserve ur time and don deserve to be with u.

Maybe you should just let me go... Your pain might slowly go away... Sorry for entering and destroying ur life.. This is the "best" thing i have ever done in my life..

Which is to
To severely damage your heart and ruin your life..

I'm sorry..

Fuck Up Temptation

2011-09-30T04:56:00.002+08:00

I realise that its so hard to resist and control the inner temptation that keeps revolving around my mind due to my weak morals. Why is it so difficult to exercise self control. This will be the fight for my life time till i get over it. I shall put an end to it regardless of what. I admit, i am just a weakling.

I have come thus far and i shall continue to maintain my self control. I pray that god will give me faith and let me be strong once and for all. You are utmost important to me. The experience of losing you once will always be in my mind. I will continue to be strong and not give in to all this shit.

To be able to be with you is a gift from god.
To cherish you is what i desire.
For you, i will persevere and be strong.
For I love you, Adelene...

The LeeLee you used to know... ... ... is dead

2011-09-11T11:46:00.003+08:00

Love is really a big word and after 4 years, i realised that i know nothing about love. It is not as simple as just making that person happy, trying to retain the smile on her face and getting her what she wan and what she need. I always aim for all these, but i fail terribly.

The partner emotion and feeling is the most important. After all, what i have been aiming for, is none other than what people usually does at the courting phase. By being in a relationship means more.. looking at myself in front of the mirror, makes me feel that 4 years of relationship seems to be like a joke.

I only try to understand the current situation and remember for that instance.. just that instance.. and i cast the entire thing out of my brain till similar things begin to occur.. oh well.. wtf am i doing.. i guess i finally understand what you mean by "i am a selfish person" after you found out what happen and make me really go and think about all aspect in our relationship.. indeed, my actions are so one sided and selfish that i got to make you feel emotionally betray. i have never show you the true side of me. I behave like a saint in front of u. but frankly speaking, i didn't know my action are actually causing this much damage. I thought i am those kind of person who behave differently to different groups of people and i am just being normal.. but i am so damn wrong. you soon realise that i have serious moral issue which i eventually understand and realised that i really do have serious moral issue..

sigh.. cheating is the biggest mistake i have ever committed in life. I destroy our future, your trust, hurt your feelings, causing u to be not stable and whats worst, i got to let you go through all these shit by yourself.. I guess i have change big time because i never thought and believe that i will end up like this.. but humans do change.. according to the environment.. but i can only say one thing.. i have no proper moral and easily influence.. i don control my own life and therefore i am not discipline enough to live according to my morals.. its my own fault, my own doing.. sigh.. i should really settle down and think of who i am and what i really wanna be and wanna achieve instead of saying "anything" all the time and goes with the flow.. its time to make some proper decision in life and grab hold of my own life and future.. needless to say, our future too..

I do not know how to thank you as you have actually given me another chance.. something very rare because this is a mistake that do not belongs in the forgiven category.. i really think i shouldn't be together with you anymore because i totally don't deserve it.. sigh.. after all this incident then i realise how much effort you have put into this relationship.. is it too late to only start opening my eyes now to see, feel and understand all your hardwork and effort? i hope its not.. to really change, it takes time.. and i wonder how long this change in my personality will take..

watching local dramas makes me feel like going back to singapore badly.. the places we go together, my parents, our memories.. i have never feel that singapore drama were so nice in the past.. but now i feel as though they are super nice.. the drama trigger my thoughts of those memories that we hold.. and watching how nice they treat each other(actor and actress) in the show makes me feel guilty.. sigh.. if only i can be this nice to you.. but even if i do this to you now, its kind of too late already.. the trust and everything is gone.. the scar is already being engrave into your heart and our relationship.. i destroy everything.. indeed.....

i would really like to be a whole new person with proper morals and to treat and love you truthfully.. i do not have what it takes to tell you "i love you".. i really don deserve to say these 3 words to you.. sigh.. i hope i will change overtime by placing faith in god and in my own actions too.. allow me to learn from my past mistake and be a change man..

i have disappoint you thoroughly and i have let you down.. it is impossible to go back to the past.. i hope we will have a future together and it will be a truthful and lovely wan..

I miss you..
Hearts you..

The old leelee is dead.. time to wash away the painful memories that he had left you with... ... ...

Future......

2011-01-14T19:48:00.001+08:00

And i see the light gets dimmer and dimmer as time goes by.... Entering a world of darkness day by day..

Ohhhhhhhhh....................... Enlighten me........ God

2009-09-26T01:03:00.004+08:00

Oh well.. feeling so random.. feel like blogging suddenly.

Friends, family, relationship.. Everything is FIRST in your heart. But according to you, relationship is First in first place, family is Second in first place, friends is Third in first place. Somehow, i feel that friend is first in first place.. But at times, you made me feel that i am First in first place.

Today, i feel that the friend had really become first in first place. I would throw aside everything, just to see u and accompany u. If its for you, even if its last minute thing and i have to attend some events or outing with friend, i will push them aside. Because you are the First in my heart.

I am busy lately.. Suddenly got a pact schedule. Work, Love, Family.. I tried my best to think of way to arrange things and de-conflict things.. but its getting no where.. I know i haven't been spending enough time with you this few weeks.. I would really like to spend nice time with you too.. But tml i really got to go in.. Because of how my grandma treat my mom when she is down and how long i have not seen her.. Frankly speaking, I don like to go in either.. so far away................ and its like finally got a weekend after the 5 days work week, can spend time with u already, I got family commitment on.. My parents couldn't give me any confirmation till last minute.. In the end, when i ask them, HOW?, they told me that they are waiting for my response since few days ago.. -_-"

The best way that we can be together this weekend will be you following me to visit my grandma.. but you had already made a pact with your friends a week ago, that you will be attending the gathering. I know that they should be given priority, but to me, i felt that friends can always meet up together.. last week, you say your friend just book out from the army, so you want to see them.. it might be your last meet up with them and wont be seeing them anymore.. Despite how sick you are, you still try to meet up with them. Tomorrow gathering, consists of army friends again.. I know you don like to pang seh your friends.. But visiting of grandma, is once a few months or years thing. and its the best way we can be together through out the weekend.. I feel that friends gathering can be push aside as there will sure be outings being organised again.. hmmmm...

Perhaps............ I am selfish this time.. but i feel that i should be given priority.. I KNOW and i feel that i am at fault too.. shouldn't just pop you this question suddenly and kind of "insist" you to pang seh your friends.. Sorry.. But i feel kind of stress.. sorry for this awful planning.. Work.. Love.. family.. sigh..

You hate my job to the core, but i kinda like it.. i like my uniform.. i like my primary job.. i like the working environment but i hate the working hours and secondary job. Detachment is a new experience for me.. see how operations work and etc.. Its my job.. Management choose me, I go.. I never volunteer for any. The biggest thing i hate about my job, is this thing:"CHANGES". This dynamic workforce always have changes.. and it often make people more of unhappy than happy.. Hate it? also must serve for the next few years till my minimum term is full filled.

Sigh.. This entry is purely my thought.. it has got nothing against you. Sorry if u feel insulted or hurt.. My intention for blogging is because i feel that i have no one to talk to.. so... ya......

Smile even if you're sad.. :)

Oh well

2009-08-23T02:58:00.002+08:00

Good Morning everyone.. it has been 2yrs and 5 months since i last logged in. had always wanted to log in and blog about my life and etc, but got carried away by laziness. LAZY is a very dangerous word and action. BEWARE ok. lol..

Just a warm up entry.. will try to cultivate the habit to blog.. i tink it is good to blog too.. lol.. shout out and say all the kuku things tt trap in my heart.

Whole Life Wasted (WLW)

2007-03-04T12:58:00.000+08:00

has been rotting everyday.. every single day.. gt tt kind of "whole life wasted" feeling.. but good in some way cux getting paid while rotting (only for these few months).

nowadays.. like gt soo many things to say.. but when logged in to blogger, suddenly my mind become empty.. nth to write about.. zzz..

everything is going well.. going smoothly.. then suddenly, over one issue, it caused disruption.. wat is happening? i donno.. i seriously donno.. certain unhappy things tt u say when ur angry, can be easily 4gotten or wont take it to heart.. but certain things u said, it makes me think alot.. sian..

tt's all.. for today..

FINALLY

2007-02-18T13:10:00.000+08:00

woooo.. after donno howwwwww long.. FINALLY updated!!! l0lx.. waaa.. so many things happen over this feww months.. it will take one whole day to list them alllll.. l0lx.. anw, happy new yrrr to alll.. will try to keep this blog updated.. ahha

after 3 yrs, graduated from poly alr.. I"M A FREE MAN!! (1 month only.. -.-") l0lx.. i going to wear blue sooon.. so fast la.. sian.. ok.. i donno wat crap to say ler.. coz too many to say, in the end, become donno wat to say.. l0lx.. tata.. will try to updateeeee!!!

P.S. YOU ROCKS!!! :D

Power boat + Updates

2006-11-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

Wooo.. updates for sat and sunday.. went to apply for Powered pleasure craft driving license (PPCDL).. the whole saturday was lecture, lecture and lecture.. learn about the different symbols, lights, sound that existed in the sea.. very confusing laaa.. so many things to memorise and learn.. omg la.. no wonder the captain say passing rate for theory is 30% only while practical test is 50% only.. holy cow.. 30 question can only have 4 mistakes.. after that its considered fail.. each attempt 21 bucks.. knn.. car thoery test cheaper and waiting time shorter.. then practical test is 52.50 bucks.. anw, the practical is abit same like car whereby accumulating of 20 points and more == faill.. come to think of it, PPCDL really nt easy to get.. practical timing so short, then the test criteria quite strict.. hmmm

after sat lecture, I went to watch STEP UP with addie, lex and nis @ westmall.. the movie damn cool la.. the dance step really very CHIO!! ahha.. listen to the music and see the way he dance, really make u wanna move ur body too.. woohooo... don mind watching it again though.. hahah.. i think the male lead dance more cool than the female dance lead!! hohoho!!

Anw, so much for saturday theory, today was practical session!!! step into the boat and there are many safety checks to be done.. quite alot to say though.. see everyone saying the same old thing makes me wanna slp.. finally its time to go out to sea!!! woooo!! cant wait for it la.. out at the sea, each of us get to drive.. CHIN CHONG use the boat to drift la.. kao.. all our hearts almost jump out.. sudden turn @ high speed.. stun man.. speeding with the power boat really shiok.. hohoho.. after that went to do the 'Man overboard drill'.. quite hard to do lo.. backman throw out the life buoy(act as human), then must go one round and retrieve it.. going around is easy.. but the retrieving part is gay.. once the boat hull knock the life buoy with a "TAK" sound, immediate failure.. then must really use judgement and stop by the side of the buoy before picking it up.. damn cheem..

after break, went back to the boat again.. this time is parkin and leaving the berth.. hmm.. initially, was quite hard to park.. all of us can barely make a perfect one.. everyone gets to do 4-5 times.. that MENG does the most la!!! i see the rest do until i fell asleep.. l0l.. went for our dinner after that, was qutie late alr.. 5.30 liao!!! went to eat @ the restaurant.. quite X.. eat fried rice and OR NI!!! at the restaurant, one aunty(think is manager), came to our table and tok to us.. she say we all qutie big size, gt go gym for trainin wan is it.. after that, she suddenly point at dennis and say:"this guy nv train one rite.. so big size.. show me ur six packs"!.. HAHAHAH!!! damn funny la.. the aunty's comment.. hohoho.. dennis must be damn gek sim even though he claims that he is ok with tt JOKE of hers.. haha.. but the aunty later treat us to a jug of plain water.. was supposed to pay for it, but it is FREE!!!

after that went back to boating again.. was about 7 clock alr.. the sky was getting dark.. after dinner, everyone went to do parking again.. surprisingly, everyone was able to do it nicely la.. the captain was like so stunt.. say after dinner, all recharged.. able to do properly.. haha.. then he allowed us to drive the boat out to the sea again.. this time with the sky dark.. sitting at the front part of the powerboat is the best of the best.. the feeling really damn nice.. the breeze blowing against ur face with the dark ambience around and the lightings of the busy port of m'sia opposite.. very very relaxing la.. (:

shook the captain's hand b4 we left, and he advice us to EAT BEFORE TEST.. lol.. lame.. get to know some interesting experience about sailing.. quite cool.. anw, went back w/o bathing cuz donno where is the bath room and no time.. coz gonna miss the shuttle bus.. at outram mrt, saw this couple, the guy really make me luff like siao.. his face gt so many different expression.. and all expression looks like a fucking retard! LOL!! act cute and bla bla bla.. lex, nis, js and me cant stop luffing.. lol.. before this, i saw two banglas standing beside a wall.. they like posting for some magazines.. stand in the same style, one behind another.. looks quite funny.. should have taken pics of them.. LOL!!

papa call me and wanna fetch me to visit grandmama.. and to fetch my mama from my aunt's house.. but my mama left alr, wat a wasted trip, so we went back home.. few minutes later, my mama call my papa and my papa went to another aunt's house to fetch my mama.. lol.. when i reach home, i smell some POISONOUS GAS!!! then i decided to find out where the smell come from.. walk into study room, no have.. my room, no have.. kitchen, no have.. master bed room, quite strong.. walk into the toilet, HOLY SHIT!!! my papa "PANG SAI BO TUA CHUI"!!! LOL!! he wanna kill me with that poisonous gas.!! i don wanna flush it away since he always don admit that he 4get or din flush the toilet.. this is the evidence.. this time he cant deny!!

after 30 min, i BTH, i went to switch on the fans, but with the evidence untouched.. lol.. finally, he is back with my mama.. even my mama could smell it in the living room.. **see how poisonous the gas is".. i invited the two of them into the toilet to see the evidence.. my mama refused to enter the toilet.. i gt to pull her in, but she faster run away.. HAHAHAH!!! my papa walk in and flush the evidence away.. then still don wanna admit defeat.. haha.. dumb mann

tt's all!!!!! logged off (:

sometimes there are things that cant be say out.. its nt that easy as there will be consequences after saying it.. hmmm

FOoooooooooooo

2006-11-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

FOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo!!! today no need to go office.. BEST! sleep till i song, then went to school.. brought training gear but end up nv train at all.. wasted.. if no rain, sure go and run de.. but it rain big time.. sadded.. finally the stepper switch is one step closer to finale.. so happy la.. just show captain tan and see wat will he says..

meet up with lex and decided to have dinner.. actually wanted to go home after that, but dennis called and ask if wanna catch movie.. after that, begin to jio ppl.. actually wanted to watch step up, but in the end, watch casino royale 007 instead.. coz many ppl cant make it in time.. too rush le..

On the bus journey to westmall, something dumb happen.. was trying to read a sms when my mama call me hp.. she cant stop nagging.. nag and nag and nag.. then lex was beside me.. i wanted to increase the volume of the sound so that lex can hear how naggy my mama is.. then i begin to shift the joystick of my phone when the phone is still intact with my ears.. shift and shift, after awhile, the volume nv increase.. then i begin to hear some thing.. i tot is some one interfering, y keep gt the xtra sound and same tone somemore.. i listen clearly and guess wat i hear.. its "FUCK YOU" in a low tone.. wtf man.. i faster see my phone, then i realise i press into the outbox and accidentally played the bluetooth recording that was being stored in my phone since last year.. it keeps repeating and repeating.. the clip was a blue tooth recording that ZK(my cousin) recorded 1 yr ago.. so wtf la.. then my mama ask me what is it.. y gt the fuck u fuck u sound de.. she nv say fuck u, but she say 8, 9, 8, 9 in chinese that goes like 'ba jiu ba jiu".. then my papa beside say its fuck you is it.. wat crap la.. she tot i scolding her cuz she nagging at me.. then i gt to explain to her.. over and over again.. say i'm a filial son and wont do such things and bla bla bla.. cant stop laughing after that.. so funny can.. imagine u are tokin to some one, then suddenly gt fuck you fuck you in a super slow and low tone.. LOL!!

went to watch casino royale 007.. quite a draggy show.. gt some parts keep talkin de.. some actions are nice.. but the whacking of the balls is damn funny la.. HAHA!!.. some scenes are damn hot la!! the last part was quite obscene.. can see that the james bond anyhow do cpr de.. purposely wanna eat the girl tofu by anyhow press.. then later at a close up scene when james bond wanna feel for pulses at her neck, omg la.. the female actress nips erected.. it was actually flat, but after the CPR, something pertruded out.. LOL!!! ok.. its really obscene.. i'm not sick ok.. many ppl realise tt.. =X

went back home after the show.. papa call me and decided to give me a lift from tiong bahru plaza.. at the traffic junction can see police in action.. something like roadblock.. but actually was an accident.. then my papa wanna KPO, he make a U-turn, park the taxi and went down to see.. think is a long vehicle bus collided with a bicycle.. but like no casualties.. nth much, went home after that..

today was quite a great day!!! logged off!!! =D

memoriessss.. =)

2006-11-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

Today was a great day!! finally not rotting in office and gt work to do.. the feeling is like.. wa.. so good.. lol.. manage to finish scenario 1 today.. GOOD!. tml will be half day off.. then decided to go to school for the whole day instead of going back to office in the afternoon..

went for training.. only saw a few sprinters came down for training.. went for campus run.. quite satisfy with my pace.. hmm.. perspire like no body business and squeeze out all the sweat from my singlet at the water cooler.. and many ppl goes "EEyer"!!, "WTF"!!, "WA PAING"!!, "OMG"!! and more.. lol.. but i demonstrate that it is safe by being the first to drink the water.. LOL!!

reach home and the desperate dota player, mr HONG HUA JIE came and talk to me.. i haven bath, i haven eat.. he wanna play dota.. i turn him down and he nt happy.. still say can show him canoeist spirit anot.. we go kallang tgt then i show u.. show u online for fark.. chey.. then say no moral and some shitty stuff.. anyway, i don really care... after tt, he put "du lan with np canoeist" as his msn nick.. wat fark man.. no link.. then block me.. after tt unblock me and paste me part of the conversation of him and Mr. X(i donno who is he talkin to, so i say is MR X).. say train so much no balls.. wat ever.. game is game.. u wanna qie and see if wat i train gt use anot, i'm willing to qie u.. play game pro does not mean u can xia lan.. u wanna xia lan, can go and fark the wall..

surf the net and visit henderson ncc webbie.. coz mr wardi ask me to check it out and to see need any changes not.. then happen to come across the photo archive.. damn cool la.. happen to find some old pictures.. haha.. very very memorable..

Guard of Honour Contingent 2004

this pictures let me think back lo.. my first parade as a CLT and first time holding a sword, being a contingent 2IC.. haha.. follow the SAF training style.. guard of honour must wear long 4 with peak cap for rehearsal.. still remember francis, JD and me screw the cadets during training.. those were the days.. haha..

sword salute

sword salute.. to the AH GUA LIM!! LOL!!

wooo.. marching pass the saluting dice.. coool

haha.. but after browsing thru all those pics.. i think that the most memorable wan is this picture below.. coz the above picture is taken during poly yr 1.. become clt liao.. the below picture still sec 3 la.. wearing the old number 1 uniform.. its the before puberty LLC.. lol.. still have no hair at that time.. coz doctor say i gt delay puberty.. LOL!!

(Left to right)
Hoong teck, Richard, LC

look at the peak cap.. so big.. like some turban.. lol.. found another photo, then i look closely.. omg.. is me la.. camouflage in grass.. ahha.. the sucking experience that i will never forget.. lol..

third short man from the right, standing with cross feet
that green little dude.. is ME!!! LOL!!

hmmm.. looking at this pic really let me think back lors.. when i was still a cadet in HSS.. really brings back fond memories.. =)

And last pic of all.. .. ..

Henderson NCC, Year 2000.
(with courtesy from JD's blog)

Thanx HSSNCC for the fond memories and everything.. =)

updatesss

2006-11-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

HOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooo!!!! went to geri's blog and cope some pictures that we took last sunday.. ahha.. last saturday was the singapore river regatta (SRR) and its my first DB comps.. quite interesting.. ha.. as compared to canoe comps, DB wan less stress.. haha.. coz its a team of 20 ppl le.. nt individual or doubles.. hmmm.. though we lost, but its really really a good race... din lose alot though.. (nt bad le.. only 2 weeks of training, row with one less person, only lose by 30 milliseconds) lol..

Team Paddlers Gateway!!!

Cool people!! =)

The five MAN!!! lol

Jun Sheng's Bdae!!!

Sunday went to help out for the nxt day race and it was a long long day.. nxt monday(13/11) is JUN SHENG bdae, thus we decided to celebrate it with him in advance.. after that, we sweep the floors outside OCBC centre.. first time use those kind of cleaners broom to sweep.. lol.. comb the area and make sure its rubbish free.. spray the area with water.. really like those cleaner.. just that we are not wearing the shirt with the two words, "WE CARE" behind our backs.. lol..

was 8+ when the whole thing ended.. then they decided to go to brewertz(donno spell correct not) to chill out..

some of them took kel's car while the rest of us walk.. along the way, many dumb things took place.. haha.. very funny.. try to take some jump shot in the air, but the camera too slow le, cant take.. then keep jumping here and there, the veins at my butt like kena sprain.. LOL.. pain.. then we walk walk walk, till clark quay there, gt one water fountain.. actually wanted to make junsheng wet, in the end, we play and play, all wet.. LOL.. went into the fountain and took pictures.. then bernard din want to play either, but after we drag him in, his pants gt wet, he suddenly say," ok.. wo pei ni men pai zao"!.. so funny la.. suddenly change his mind.. since wet liao, then play all the way!! haha

Below is a very COMICAL AND FUNNY AND LAME AND DUMB picture.. whereby u can see what is the "wanna shit, but cant let the shit out" face..

LADIES AND GENTLEMAN, HERE I BROUGHT TO YOU

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MR DENNIS CONSTIPATION FACE!!!

HAHAHAHAHAH!!! (don kill me when u saw this >.<)

He insisted that i let go, but i nv lo.. but i cant stop luffing after i saw this pic.. haha.. still gt some other pictures taken.. basically cope from gerrri's blog.. coz she nv upload.. so i only gt limited photos.. l0l..

**Mr Dennis trying to smile despite the pain on his butt**
LOL!!!!!! HEHE!!!!

check out those tester beer!!!

@ brewertz, all the super big mouth..
(now u see how KB canoeist can be if they want to.. LOL)

that happens when two drunkard tok to each other.. haha

when everyone gets HIGH!!! hohoho

well well well.. actually gt more nice picture.. will upload it if i gt it.. haha.. sunday was a GREAT DAY!!! =)

LKK means lok kok kia.. LKK sign offf!!!! =D

thoughts

2006-11-14T00:18:00.000+08:00

i seriously don like the way i behave during attachment.. fuck is the word the be used. everyday slp and slp.. fuck myself.. i don even have the mood to do the projects.. its only week 11 and i gt 11 more weeks to go.. the initial stage of attachment was fine, i was like a hardworking soul, trying to get things done asap and with quality, asking kn nt to slack off.. now its the opposite way round.. i seriously don like it.. i cant stand my own behaviour!!! na bei.. anyway, went back to school for training.. never really do much though.. i think i really slack too much le.. i need to get back my sense of urgency.. need to know when is it time to slack and when is it time to be serious.. wake up la u dumb fuck..

browse thru those folders that contain pictures, then suddenly tot of something.. haven really taken pictures with francis and JD.. friends for so long.. since sec 1.. been thru shit tgt, have fun and how we disturb other ppl.. those were the past.. but it always stays as nice memory.. maybe the next time we meet up, lets take some pictures and leave some nice memories dudes. as for kel, take good care of urself ya. later u fever till brain damage.. lol.. *touch wood*.. do have a speedy recovery ya.. to all my dearest teammates/friends who are sick, pls take good care of urself too!!

i gt things to say, but i donno how to put it. maybe its a wrong choice again.. am i dumb? i donno.. anyway, i shall nt allow myself to fall any deeper. i draw the thick white line there, i stop there.. the same rule that applies to the traffic. u fail to stop at stopline, u fail the test. in this case, if i fail, i fall deeper. tt's all.. all my dumb logic.. u don understand, nvm.. coz i understand will do.. don ask me wats it about unless u want to be ignored. i will tell u if i want..

nowadays, tears like free one.. emo for awhile and it suddenly flow out.. everything is so wrong.. dear lord, what is happening to me???

LLC the LKK shall fark off now.... and i hope the next day will be a even better day..

Boring dayyyyyy

2006-11-09T19:33:00.000+08:00

hais.. today is another boring day laaa.. went to office, nothing to do again.. superviser on leave, lecturer never reply my mail.. basically is just surfing of net and chatting on msn.. read so many article on wikipedia, read till the eyes wanna pop out.. i'm so bored that i went to take pictures of gummies.. lol..

G for gummies!!!

They have decided to take a family photo!!
(multi racial OK!! all diff color take tgt.. but orange and
green anti-social.. trying to face other direction.. LOL)

The gummies have decided to host a meeting
and discussed about some world issue.. lol.. lame..
or maybe, it is a bonding session for them.. haha

NICE FOOD!!!! =)

took all the above pictures for self entertainment.. haha.. gonna grow fat soon.. everyday eats chocolate.. eat, seat, sleep is what i have been doing for this 2 days.. never really move around.. the hershey milk choco and hershey dark choco is common.. but the other two i never eat before.. find it damn nice.. lol.. the red one is the nicest la.. follow by the yellow wrapping one.. one of the officer brought a whole big packet of it from the states.. can eat until shuang.. haha.. oh ya.. together with a big packet of gummies too.. that's y can take picture.. LOL!!

went to have breakfast with kang ning at the airmens' mess.. the prata damn nice la.. but super duper oily.. i gave the uncle a clean 10 dollar note, he return me my cash with so much oil on it.. even the coins are oily.. abit sian diao.. tt's y i always try to give him the exact amount.. lol.. I saw this F5 pilot in his G suit, walking in to order his food.. suddenly felt so 'sud ki'.. people who see u walking around in the G suit will sort of respect you la, coz ur the elites of the air force.. haha.. suddenly tot of becoming pilot.. but i've gt a contract, so i dont think i can.. every pilot got a unique call sign.. the F5 pilot i saw is call 'Lim G', another one call 'Gotchi'.. if i become pilot, i wanna call 'Lupchiong'!! haha.. anyway, talked to captain tan about the attendance things and i ask him about the pilot thing.. he sound as if it is so easy to convert into a pilot.. if that is so, everyone will sign on as a senior tech and convert to be pilot already.. ha.. he gave me a number and ask me to call.. should i? i donno lei.. maybe i shld ask the recruitment centre first.. hmmm

the DB training today was cancel.. is both a good and bad news.. good news is that i can rest my right arm for another day.. bad news is no more training already and saturday is the comps.. anyway, just hope that the race will turn out well.. went home after that and slack.. nothing to do.. eyes going to pop out soon as i looked at the labtop for too long already.. can see reflection of the symbol or letter underneath each button on the keypad.. i think i need to do eye exercise.. lol..

signed off........................................ =D

Fishing morning

2006-11-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

SIIIIIiaaaaaaaaannnnn la.. today is farking day.. start with a freaking morning.. went to toa payoh stadium to take my napha test.. gt the prepare to fail mode cuz i'm down with flu.. sure no stamina to run de.. reach there, see people seating around.. tryint to find some familiar faces.. walk from left to right, right to left.. like some dumb ass like tt.. luckily i manage to find one familiar person and he told me wat to do.. show the indian instructor my 11B and proceeded to get my number tag.. got number 42.. the Physical training instructor (PTI) all very strict and stern as they describe all the rules and regualtion..

LOUSY SCORE for the day:
Standing Broad Jump: 214cm
Sit & reach: 38cm
Sit up: 44
Pull up: 5
Shuttle run: 10.4s
2.4km Run: Nil

first station, standing broad jump(SBJ).. can have a total of 2 tries.. see some people jump, like frog like tt.. 240++, 250++, 260++.. but some cant jump.. when its my turn, i jump 214..wtf man.. i can usually jump 220++ or 230++.. today like shit.. 214 is 1 point.. means bronze le.. bronze == fail.. siaan diao.. but guo jun worst.. he cant jump over 200cm range.. haha.. =x

second station, sit & reach.. usually is 44cm.. today 38cm.. after two tries still 38cm.. wa kao.. really like shit..

third station, sit up.. i think this station is the only one that i am satisfied with.. did 44 times in 1 minute.. the PTI is so strict la.. if elbow nv touch knee cap, shoulder nv touch floor mat, its a NO COUNT!

fourth station, pull up.. this station really disappoint me.. haiz.. see other ppl.. nt all can do more than 4.. u cant use your biceps to do, u cant kick, u cant cycle ur way up, u nv straighten your hands, chin not over the bar clearly, all this action will lead to a NO COUNT! it my turn and i am pretty confident.. coz pull up should not be a problem.. when i mount the bar, the old injury at the joint of my right arm suddenly strike me.. wa lan eh.. i cant use any strength at all la.. i dismount the bar, stretch and mount again.. this time i know that the problem is really serious.. i tried so hard to pull and manage to do 5.. i still gt strength left.. its not like i cant do but just that the joint.. its stopping me.. knn.. felt so bu shuang la!!! Y star 2 course i kena this injury!!! fark.

fifth station, shuttle run.. very cock up oso.. when its my turn, the PTI shouted ready and go.. the first few steps like wanna fall down, nt stable at all.. wa lan eh.. pek chek la.. y all thing so cock up.. then end up with a 10.4s.. though its 3 points, but i still sian diao.. coz i believe i can do better..

the last station, 2.4km run.. i don even bother to run.. gt flu == no stamina. The outcome is clear.. y still wanna waste time.. i hated my performance today.. everything all drop and de-prove.. i'm not happy.. nor satisfy.. went to return my tag and went back to the pull up bar.. wo bu gan xing.. i try to do again.. endure the pain and manage to do 8.. but no use already... test is over.. change and went back to office... the whole morning is damn fark up.. though this napha test is not really important for now, but i still wan to do better.. next is school napha test, that is the important one as it decides when u go into the army and what award for physical fitness will appear on ur certificate..

went back to office and rot.. basically one project is waiting for superviser to check and prepare to close the case.. second project is waiting for superviser to confirm things with us.. so we have gt nothing to do but rot.. ROT u know.. sian wan.. i wanna train.. but the old injury that i gt back in the morning wont allow me to.. it hurts when i swing my right arm forward.. hopefully it will heal faster and not affect the regatta this saturday.. haiz..

y the injury is suddenly back.. y y y y Y la!!! sian full.. went to watch flushed away with JD.. the movie quite lame and funny la.. those slugs inside are super funny and cute.. haha.. can try watching it.. see how frog wanna clear away rats but fail.. lol... tt's all for today.. time to slp!!! hopefully i will recover by tml? i seriously hope so..

logged off!!! (=

Hmmmm

2006-11-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

HOOOoooooooooooooo... think i am seriously lagging of sleep!!! i need to discipline myself to sleep early from now on.. if nt everyday must sleep 1hr 30min in office.. the neck will break due to the lousy chair.. lol..

hmmm... went for second last DB training before the regatta starts.. well, everything was normal and good.. but i cant run due to the nose block!! sian diao.. the number of pull ups that i can do also drop.. everything deproving.. must train back le.. Most of the people rowing DB are sick.. affected by flu, sore throat, cough and bla bla bla.. after sprinting one or two times, something bad happen to jia ying!!! all of us faster row the boat back to SCF and get an ambulance for her.. it was like, suddenly so chaotic on the DB.. shoutings here and there.. so luan la.. the dumb ambulance cant find the way to scf.. wat crap.. luckily gt one qualified first aider attending to her.. thanx to tt kind soul too!!

JY was being send to tan tock seng hospital, the A&E department.. we bath, change and rush down to the hospital.. heard that her condition had stablilized and tt was good.. was so urgent looking for toilet, then anyhow walk.. kena scolded by the indian security.. lol.. then he show us where is the rite toilet to go to.. first time in TTS, so donno where to go.. ha.. then was kinda bored, ask brian and bernard to walk with me to explore the hospital.. wanted to see how the mortuary looks like..

see the picture, mortuary was all the way down.. then i tell MR BERNARD that this passage can direct to MRT. he ask me, WHERE GOT MRT when the sign is just in front of him and beside him as he walk pass.. -.-" its like super obvious la.. i must walk back to the pillar and show him.. LOL.. was quite dumb and funny!! we walk all the way down and found the entrance to the mortuary.. quite eerie and cold there.. but the area is under surveilliance camera, so we decided nt to explore any further.. haha

left the hospital and went to eat.. gt short cut don take, take long cut.. maybe walking this extra mile is part of training too.. LOL!! went home after tt.. tml is napha test and i haven tell my officer about it.. how blur can i get.. now stuck with flu la.. kanna.. tml no need get silver liao.. can prepare to fail la!!! omg.. sian..

Thanx to daph who taught me how to use color and larger font for my entries.. i sound so noob la.. haha.. but thanx anyway!!! =)

**To the champions, i see how hard Jia Ying had train for this regatta.. i see the effort that she had put in for this race. she is sick and yet she come. HOW COME YOU CHAMPIONS CANT COME DOWN. skipping training for 1 or 2 times is acceptable as the race is this weekend. don tell me you NEVER skip your training even once before. not as if we are asking you to skip training and go out to party. Iits training too!! If u think just go for the race, anyhow row then can go liao.. Then i can see how irresponsible u rall are.

Not another day of my ZZZ life

2006-11-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

hmmm... went to office today as usual.. then rot rot and rot.. started planning the project jaguar 2nd scenario.. so sian la.. anyway, found one army magazine on the shelf, then began reading it.. quite interesting though.. can see alot of old old pictures, X-soldiers testimonial and etc etc.. anyway, i cant stand it but got to say tt CAPTAIN ONG OoI TECK is a SPY la.. wa kao.. last time walk pass our cubicle, nth happen de.. nowadays cant stop peeking in.. peek oso no skill.. do until so obvious.. wtf man!! anyway, tml(friday) no need to see SPY!! going back to NP to test the stepper switch again as tuesday the stepper switch produces no output signal and we are nt able to let captain tan verify.. sian..

left office 10min earlier and went down to kallang.. next week is my napha test, tt's y i take this time and train up my stamina.. went to run round the normal running route at kallang for 2 rounds.. the first round was quite ok.. but the second round is more of cool down.. after tt, is DB.. today damn sian la.. like many many things cock up.. strokes can lost count, paddle can anyhow splash water, keep losing to other DB ppl.. felt so lousy.. Anyway, i seriously don wanna kao bei.. but some ppl really CHAMPION.. next week is comps and today cant come down.. sat cant come down.. then train only on next tuesday and tt's it.. if have enuff ppl then don need to ask if u all are interested liao. it might nt be a important comp for u, but pls rmb that its still a comp. u donno how much CHER have sacrifice to train us.. took off his own time and gave us free coaching. nt like u all are able to row well.. i mean i am nt that good too.. tt's y i go down for training.. but u all don really know the strokes, gt prob catching up.. then still like tt.. imagine u wan this thing badly and needed help from ppl. then ppl agreed to help u, but only help u a few times only.. how will u feel?? u all gt commitments so does the rest of us. how come you all cant take off just 2hr of ur time and come down? i seriously donno y. really CHAMPION. CHAMPION of the CHAMPION.

went to hospital to see grandma after her leg operation.. guess i reach too late le.. she's asleep.. then don bother wakin her up.. maybe go and see her on sunday again.. but it has been a long time since i last saw her.. can really see tt grandma grow old le.. but she is still the nice and good grandma in my heart.. (:

after the visit, my lao pei send me home.. don wanna my driving skills to get rusty, then decided to drive his taxi.. drivin is still as fun and intersting as ever.. haha.. went over to tammi, the lao wang's estate, wanna see her father BMW.. see how badly is the dent that she had created for the father car.. lol.. but she cant rmb the car plate number of the BMW, so i cant search for it.. wat a waste.. haha!! went home after tt.. tml is shopping!!! time to dig a hole in my own pocket.. lol.. hopefully i am able to buy the thing i wan.. hohoho

**the above kao bei content, i'm not tryin to pick a fight or wat, but just saying out wat i feel..

logged offf...... =D

updates....

2006-11-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

awritez.. the testing 1,2,3 is just to test if i am able to publish my entry up onto my blog.. there have been error these few days and i am not able to freakin publish my post.. damn cock.

anyway, the DB regatta is next week and we still nv get to train together with the FULL STRENGTH. like tt win shit. hopefully don be last. but whatever it is, i will still try my best.. don wanna waste cher's effort and time tt he took off to train with us. ytd was funny.. bo tai bo ji kena 30 push up from cher coz of ganja's idea. but it was fun though.. ahha..

have been training almost everyday for this few weeks.. i don have enuff rest and time for my muscle to recover and next week is the napha test by airforce.. hopefully i will be able to achieve silver by then..

just now waited for the 61.. kanna.. take 20min to come.. normally nt tt long wan la.. 9.30 at bus stop wait for bus.. 10.50 then reach home.. freakin waste my time.. i hate 61.. knn.. last time make me wait 45 min.. now 20 min.. sian.. aiya.. nth interesting to blog bout for today..

logged off.

test

2006-11-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

testing 1, 2, 3

Dragon boating on SAT!

2006-10-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

Saturday was a great day la! went for DB training in the afternoon.. row row and row.. got the feel.. damn shiok!! ahha.. oh ya.. went to watch movie on friday then i came across this lollipop machine outside golden village.. its 1 for one dollar!! wa lao.. cheat money wan la.. one lollipop one dollar.. 50 cent already so X.. 1 dollar.. diao.. i can buy 3 of them outside la..

anyway, went to suntec and eat.. there was no seat left.. then we waited.. finally gt one available table, when chin chong was gonna stick his ass down, one aunty just zoom in with a kid.. chin chong, bernard and i gt stunt.. nvm.. she gt a kid and a big family.. give in to her.. then there was this guy with his family, taking his own blardy sweet time eating the fish.. wa lao.. u see ppl waiting, u chop chop eat and go liao ma.. buay pai sae wan, slowly use spoon to scrap the fish meat from the bone, slowly use chopstick to pick up every small bits of fish and eat.. kanna.. see liao buay tahan, make me du lan.. good mood become du lan.. freak tt guy la.. !@#$%^

then finally jeremy found a free table, half of us went over to seat.. then proceeded on to order our food.. went to order the duck rice.. gt the tray, wanted to carry the bowl of hot soup down. the damn soup scalded my hand.. kena my shirt, hand and leg.. sian diao.. carry the food back to the table to eat.. then the table got alot of dishes left over from the previous ppl.. i saw the cleaner opposite, therefore i transferred all those plates over.. i already in bad mood, she still give me the F face and show me hand signs to stop, ask me don put over.. is like.. hello, the table gt so many big plates, how are we supposed to put our own food and eat properly.. kanna u at one spot, i pass to u for u to clear, cannot meh.. die die must walk over to our table and clear.. straight like a ruler la.. 3 unhappy things happen in 1hr.. wa kao.. but after tt i cool down liao.. was wandering y i so dulan.. haha.. back to normal again.. =D

went to esplanade roof terrace and listen to live band.. tok cock at the same time.. the ambience nt bad.. nice view.. i think if the life band nt there, with a quiet ambience, will be better.. ahha.. went home after tt.. prepare for tml training and DB!! hohoho!!

OFF day from attachment

2006-10-28T00:40:00.000+08:00

today was damn great la.. need nt go for attachment.. able to claim my OFF for last saturday deepavali.. slp until i happy for today.. but some bad dreams woke me up.. the dreams are like so dumb la.. dream tt i'm on high tide and went into a toilet at NP, then inside this cubicle gt this old man, i think is a lecturer.. when i push open the door, his head lean on my chest donno for wat, then i push his darn head away.. i cant hold it anymore and begin to do my business.. then he suddenly ask me about kinematics and about the length of the wood above the toilet.. then i can feel the damn pressure he is exerting on me but i cant move coz haven finish with my business.. i keep pray and pray till the old man was gone.. i walk out of the toilet with jelly legs.. after which, i woke up from the dream.. so dumb lo.. spoil my beauty slp.. LOL!

was chatting to addie this morning then she happen to update her blog after class.. and i realised i gt a new nick.. LC == low class.. wat sia.. i'm not lors.. don anyhow say! haha.. went to gym in the afternoon.. cant run due to rain.. sadded..

then in the evening, met up with junda and richard to watch movie.. intially was one movie, then it became a movie marathon.. watch one after another.. the first one was sinking of japan.. the show nt bad la.. gt one scene inside the tent,
The girl ask:" can you make love to me"
The guy replied:"i can't do it now"
The girl:"WHY NOT?"
so dumb la.. the whole cinema is filled with laughter.. haha..

got another part whereby the girl see the guy off for the last time.. the scene i think abit not good.. coz she shld have stand there and watch the helicopter take off and fly away before she ride the bike away.. but she just ride the bike straight away after the guy went into the helicopter.. if i am the director, i will do it my style.. i think looks more romantic.. HAHA!!!

next movie is THE GUARDIAN.. the boot camp part is nice lo.. see the way they train really damn tough! i think i will be the first few to be kick out.. LOL.. hmmm, the ending is quite sad.. tears roll down from my eyes when the senior chief sacrifice himself.. i too EMO liao.. ahha.. i never realise the importance or existence of US coast guard till i watch this show.. i think they r more elites than those US marines.. =x for those search and rescue ppl.. **salute them** the movie ends with a quote.. "So Others May Live".. damn great! anyway, i don mind watching it again.. to me, this show is nice! =)

erm.. i think i can forget totally forget you coz i have 'kan kai' already.. and i'm certainly moving on! anyway, thats all for today.. tml is DB training.. i wanna row better tml! i will strive on! hohoho =) **grins

feelings

2006-10-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

today went for attachment as usual.. then at around 10+, captain koh came to our cubicle and say :" ni men bei complain liao".. tt means we kena complain.. wtf sia.. kena caught for playing games and watchin movie.. khong leng la.. play game still insist on turning the volume on.. then the screen face outside somemore.. all people who wanna go drink water can see what he doing.. -.-" i only play one round after my work lo.. at least i gt slant away the screen and off volume.. the email from LOTB ask how is our project going and on two occasion, found us play game and watch movie.. the movie oso not i bring wan lo.. and last time khong leng waanted to watch.. nt like i can really stop.. then i end up watching tgt with him.. the image in front of those captain and officers all gone liao.. damn sian after hearing the news and reading the email.. but i suspect is my our branch people who lodge a complaint cux i nv really see other branch ppl or other unfamiliar ppl stepping into office when we were carrying out those "LEGAL" activities.. damn bullshit.. nxt time i gonna screw him if he do any of this dumb things..

everynight i ahve been sleeping at 1.45.. then the lack of sleep effects finally struck me.. for yesterday and today, early in the morning.. i could hardly type two sentences.. after a few word, i gt so tired that i need to rest for a few minutes.. woke up and continue to type.. after a few words, eyes closing again.. the process goes over and over again and i need to ensure that i nv type any wrong information.. sian.. i gonna have my basic discipline to slp early.. i don like the 'wanna fall asleep' feeling.. screw myself..

went to training after attachment today.. the running part ok la.. still trying to gain back my stamina.. my treps.. still very sour.. due to monday's gym.. din get to gym much though..

i saw her today.. i am suppose to forget bout her.. but each time i saw her, my mind will start to think.. i walk pass u and treat u transparent.. i nv talk to u.. i nv greet u.. but in my mind.. everything is opposite.. ur not transparent to me.. i really wan to talk to u and communicate like normal friend.. but somehow there is barrier in me.. i don dare to.. u wont know how i feel and think.. or maybe u will just think that why am i so dao or watever.. my mind is thinkin.. but my body wont move.. sighh..

WTC

2006-10-14T01:06:00.000+08:00

well well well.. yesterday went to watch world trade center with JD.. fell asleep during the first 30min.. not really fall asleep but semi conscious.. too tired liao la.. nt the show boring.. waste my own money.. the show actually not bad le.. peepz who haven watch, can go and watch.. ahha.. towards the end, can hear ppl cry.. as in the sound come from their nose la.. and some action like station the hand on teh face there, prepare to wipe off the tears.. i donno how to describe.. LOL.. then i tell JD tt gt ppl cry in this show, he keep quiet.. u know y? i found out the answer after readin his blog.. coz his own eyes are wet too.. HAHAHAH.. but my eyes oso wet la.. i watch movie very emo de lo.. but for this show, my eyes only wet.. no tears flow down..

today went down to NUS again to test the program.. FINALLY ar!!! 4 out of 5 scenario correct.. can proceed to stage 2 liao... more complicating things coming up.. attachment is fun, boring, interesting, tiring, troublesome and cool.. lol..

i gonna die soon.. sleep at 1.45am, wake up at 6.20am everyday.. i need slp.. SLEEP!!! SLEEP!!!

post after one month.. ahha

2006-10-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

waa... after so long, i finally came to clear up all the spider webs on my blog.. lol.. anyway, many things happen each and everyday but i lazy to log in and update.. if only i can sign into blogger in my office, i surely will keep posting my post de, coz too bored.. attachment life sure sucks.. see people face, eat and grow fat, sleep when you want, try to complete the project given, can leave early then try to leave without fail and many more.. no clearance to touch this and that which resulted in all this things.. no clearance then still go to that place for wat?? help the company to raise its electricity bill? cant bring in labtop due to the fact that we are civilians.. but hello.. the project you gave to us, most of the time requries labtop and we have got no access to mindef internet.. how the *toot* are we suppose to do our job. you told us your project is last priority as the captain's project come first, but after 3 weeks and we nv produce anything, u show us face. wat crap lo.. although we are using ur labtop caused you ask us to use it for oyur project and DONT MIND WE USING FOR CAPTAIN'S PROJECT, then don show us black face then. so much for attachment..

today i used the excuse of meeting Mr yee for discussion on 555 timer circuit and went back to school.. went to watch movie in library after tt.. i found this dvd, "hamburger hill" and decided to watch it, since its a war movie that i haven't watch before.. it is rated M18 and i need to fill up a small green form to declare that i am 18. before he takes the dummy cover from me and retrieve the original disc, he say:

Librarian: can i see your ID pls

ME: *takes out driving license and show him

***after 3minutes

Librarian: oh ok.. (walks inside to retrieve the dvd)

this is like what crap lo.. see driving license liao means is 18 and above liao wat.. still take so long, trying to find my birthday and think 2006 - 1987 = 19.. took him so long to figure out.. diao.. -.-"

then he told me, M-18 show restricted to station 13 and 14 only.. caused cannot let other ppl see.. another crap.. qutie a few m18 movies but only 2 station available.. but library getting more and more open ar.. i see the m18 show, can see the girl half naked wan.. nv delete the scenes or wat so ever.. soon the library will be flooded with all this original show with no deleted scene.. jsut a matter of time ya..

sometimes i really wonder, am i really a weakling.. that gives in so much to my friends.. people show me face only, i talk nicely back.. can that be consider the good side of me? or people will see it the other way round and think that i am good to bully or just a clown.. but let me tell you people.. the reason i don wan to xia lan back or talk back is because i don want to have quarrel or conflicts between each other.. you want to win, i let you win.. if i'm at fault, i apologise and know where i stand. i have been thinking about this issue for quite sometime.. how long more can i tolerate this kind of things.. if u want to joke with me, its ok, i can take it.. so far i'm awrites.. but don take me for granted... a balloon can be blow till quite big.. but it burst when u over do it..

dont't fuck around with me or i'll fuck you..

Attachment

2006-09-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

HHHOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooo... today is the first day of attachment... went to air force school for orientation. this whole week is orientation.. kinda slack today.. 3 tea breaks, videos after videos, pool session in specialists mess and go ohme 2 hrs earlier.. lol.. andrew attached to ST aerospace sounds kinda xiong.. totally opposite from us.. but maybe next week onwards, go to airbase and work, life will be different.. wonder wats the programme for tomorow.. ha.. when the warrant officer announce our posting, yuan hang tio paya lebar airbase, i see his face expression i wanna luff.. lol.. joke sia.. the super worry + gan jiong + sian face.. COCK!!!!! HOHOHOHOHO.. (i'm nt evil.. =x) attached to paya lebar airbase with some of my friends but working at the same branch with kang ning (weapon branch).. i wonder how will it be.. ha.. =x

today was suppose to be happy, but the RASHES AND ANT BITE SPOIL MY DAY!! freak U!!.. sians.. the toe so itchy whenever i walk.. then the neck area feel so uncomfortable.. wat the fark.. very disturbing le.. but i manage to pull thru.. hopefully tml will be a good day for me.. haiz..

the dumb rashes begin to spread and pop out like no body business.. i cant take it anymore.. went to see doctor.. the doctor see those red patches, face abit stunt.. lol.. then he recommend me to have an injection.. of coz i agreed to it coz i desperately wanted a jab so as to heal more quickly.. the doctor perrform stunt on me.. he poke abit, then suddenly say sorry.. i tot wat.. then immediately after sorry, i feel the super duper pain at my left butt.. stunt ma.. super pain!!! he miss it or anyhow poke.. i donno.. lol.. i walk out of the room wiht my left hand on my left butt.. limping.. diao.. -.-" he still smile at me and say,"still pain ar? sorry ar." lol... i walk out, the nurse see me, luff at me.. kinda dump la.. paid 60 bucks for everything... dumb rashes.. give me so much problem.. pls faster be gone..

guess tt's all for the day.. wonder wats tml programme.. maybe having 4 tea breaks? LOL.. i'm nt sure.. ha.. shall update again.. tata~~

New skin

2006-09-01T18:49:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. exams over.. finally gt time to change my blog.. but change liao oso nth much de la.. after one month, actually gt alot to update, but i too lazy to update. certain things are unnecessary ya.. anyway, its back to those lonely days now. and oso back to the lok kok days. been spending too much money nowadays.. nt on anything but on FOOD.. wat crap..

attachment at airforce next week.. for the nxt 6 months, i wonder wat will i do there. hows the life in there.. hmmm.. its just sumthing like "go in earlier" for 6 months.. nth special. hope to get a gd superviser then.. results on 15 sept and i wonder wat kind of grades will i get. hopefully nt a shitty one. hopefully i can achieve wat i wanna achieve..

its over liao.. i have given up.. wat a loser but tt's who i am. maybe i still nt rdy for this kind of things. because a person will really go all out for this kind of things regardless wat. but here i am, doing nth and afraid of this and that.. for now, i can tell myself to fuck off since i've gt no balls. so.. FUCK OFF LLC~~! lol.. wat a great cock i am.. can go and sing mai hum.. mai hum mai hum mai hum and maybe i will nt be so hum.. -.-"

ear hole

2006-08-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

SONG BOH!!! i went to pierce my left ear today with dennis and andrew after watching nacho libre. skip 2hrs of lecture to watch it.. lol.. the feeling of piercing ok bah.. like ant bite.. then after tt ok liao.. no blood involve.. lol.. i like noob liddat.. the pain ease liao.. anyway, piercing is ok with me.. my father no comments, but my mama angry.. i donno y.. but she say y u never ask my permission then u go pierce.. is like oh pls, if i ask, then don need to try liao..

certain things can try.. certain things cant. after my attachment, gonna go airforce liao. then cant try all this things liao.. y nt try now.. next time don wan liao, then let it close lor.. i don understand her.. neither does she understand me i think.. sian wan la..

nacho libre is a damn darny movie la.. if u nt happy, go watch it and u will luff till ur teeth drop.. haaa.. kinda cool.. now the nxt movie is lake house.. i gonna watch it man.. but kinda X.. so lets wait for one more week.. hehe.. tt's all lor.. nth much today..

i think i really nt like myself this few days.. i've changed... seriously.. whats going on???

i donno.........................

Feelings... ... ...

2006-07-30T16:13:00.000+08:00

i felt like a lost sheep.. .. .. .. ..

updates

2006-07-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeee.... updates again... went to watch movie just now. me, andrew, dennis and hs. actually wanted to watch lake house. but hs say four guys watch romance show, abit gay.. lol.. then watch dragon tiger gate instead. quite a nice show though.. ha.. all characters so cool lor.. one of the main actor, dennis call him JING MU DAN.. lol.. wat is that man.. haha.. dumbo. the fighting is cool la.. but the way he run, like gay.. lol..

my back is irritating me lor. cant run or jump too much. but i play bball ytd. like a noob f**k.. ha.. after each short game, the back will give me trouble. trying to throw ball in certain way, but all miss.. kao.. so difficult... learning from scratch is nt easy at all.. hmmm.. but i will practise more.. at least i shoot 5 balls in.. dennis only shoot 1 in.. ahha..

went to kallang on wednesday to row boat with alfred. gt bite by an red ant w/o knowing it. then now so itchy.. giving me hell.. has been 1 yr plus since i last gt bitten. dear ants, pls don make me carry out evil deeds by killing u. lol.. (apply to red ants only.)

oh ya.. today andrew suggested to go canteen 3 to eat. coz got some HEALTHY CAMPAIGN going on. went to western stall and order chicken chop rice.. john was in front of me. after we bought our food, we went back to the table and seat down.. then he saw something swimming in his gravy.. he scoop it out and HOLY SHIT it was a HOUSE FLY!!! LOL!! swimming in gravy summore. i see liao very disgusted, use hs bowl of soup to cover the fly. then john push the bowl forward.. i see the fly's leg outside of the bowl.. then being drag infront.. see liao really sian diao.. but at least the fly die with its body soaked in "delicious" gravy.. RIP... lol

hmmm.. will keep trying till the very end. dear lord, pls bless me with more courage. =)

2006-07-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

oh welll.. the national comps is over. though nv manage to win or go into the finals, but we leech quite alot of experience. many thanx to my dear partner, bernard. we have completed both races together and eat the backwash of other ppl boats together. was a good race after all. ha.. lets come back as alumni and try again next yr.. =x

well.. life is back to normal again. wonder if i should participate in the round ubin marathon. the marathon will be on 20 of aug and the nxt day is my exam. sians.. go or don go. i nt sure.

the second prize for RD is so amazing. i was shock when i see it.. lol.. the first thought that came to my mind is tt, the person will be so happy to play with it, but after pumping it for so damn long, he would rather threw it aside and not play it.. u know y? cox sian of pumping air into it.. lol.. stood outside the gym and pump the boat for 30 min. it was only 3/4 full with air.. diaox.. luckily the shape is there, if not i will faint. ahha

i've been thinkin all day long. think and think. every single day. how to approach, how to act. really depends on myself to take the nxt step. but i find it so difficult. sian. like tt carry on, good game liao.. =(

I'll keep trying.

Last sprinting competition

2006-07-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

well.. today is the first day of national canoeing championship(ncc). can say is my last sprinting competition le ba.. coz this year i year 3 liao, gonna graduate. see many different types of people, the way they race, and different categories of competition. really very cool. see people from hong kong with incredible fast reps, endurance and speed. see people race with C boats. see skinny and white competitor but turn out to be the first and super fast.

my race was scheduled at 1240pm. but due the very efficient organiser, my race was being brought forward 20 min. i'm nt as nervous as compared to MR500 race. i just feel so normal. just like normal training, no feeling at all. row the K2 boat to the start line, encouraging my partner and talk bout some race strategy. lol.. and there were another 3 boat competing in my event. one from X-national team, one from national team and one from NJC alumni.

the horn sound off and the race begun. after i finish my first 6 hard strokes, the other competitor already 1 boat length ahead. sian. but carry on rowing. the direction was being change due to the backwash of other boat or current of the water. but bernard manage to get it back on track. at about 500m point, almost capsized, but we braised it up. by then other people already lead us 300m. nv give up and continue to row. i row with my head down and i SUPPOSED there is still coordination. row finish and gt the last position. was glad tt we complete and never capsized. thank god.

was actually quite sian after the race, but after awhile ok liao. today the polo girls came down to watch the race. SHE came too.. i was surprised. i really really really wanted to talk to her. but i don dare to. haiz. i can only sit aside and look at her lor. today is a really good chance to approach, but i missed it.. sigh.. my mind wanted to go up to her, but my body just wont move. y i no courage and guts de.. sian.. wat a loser lor.. haiz.. like tt double sian le.. first is race, second is my own stupid problem. she was there for so long lor. i wasted my chance. haiz...

stay back and watch the race as dennis, jeremy, collin, brian, samuel race is at around 4+. went to join bernard they all in rowing the K1. at least better than sitting there, feel like approaching, but body so reluctant to move.. kao.. loser me.

those hong kong ppl i really gotta salute them. real pros. after everyone race finish, clean up the place, change and went to town to eat. walk aorund far east, looking for chicken rice to eat. after walking 3 rounds, we decided to eat burger king instead. damn full la. at BK, jun sheng show me the video that they recorded for my race.. i see liao i immediately sian diao. i never know tt my cooridination was so out and wrong.. sian.. my fault le.. train so long liao, still like tt.. really a laughing stock. ppl must be thinking, this kind of ppl still dare to join competition. sian.. but thanx to the video camera, at least after so many training, i know how cock up i am. always assuming tt we are synchronize, but in actual fact, we are not. my bad. as the bad man should follow and coordinate with front man.. sigh..

tml i got one more event. 500m race. i really hope can perform well and put in my best shots. i wanna row and complete the race with no regrets le.. after each race, i wanna tap my partner shoulder, telling him good job, and not regretting by keep saying this can be improve, tt can be improve and etc. anyway, tml got very strong competitors and i realy hope to at least achieve a 5th position tml and not last. god bless. see the video liao, sian again. then think bout this afternoon thing, sian again.. wa.. afternoon suffer from double sian.. night time oso suffer from double sian.. crap la me..

tt's all i think. maybe some people can teach me or train me to nt be a loser. tml then continue to update lors.. anyway, lets all hope tt everyone can perform tml and row with no regrets!!! NGEE ANN KAYAKING TEAM KI AHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~!!!!!!!

Competition

2006-07-11T02:31:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. 11 more days to competition. the national canoeing championship.. every sprinters who are taking part, must jia yoU ok!!! will just row and complete the race with no regrets!! last competition for me liao.. don wanna regret at all.. so i must do my very best!!! to my partner, i gt sumthing to tell u...............
BERNARD LIM CHANG KANG YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA =)

anyway, today was chionging the presentation for the dumb wisp.. then suddenly msn gt a message.. i see, i stunt.. power sia.. has been 4 yrs since we last chat lors.. wa.. gt tt kind of feeling like i have just found a long lost friend.. though the conversation was short, but i kind of enjoy it though. always don dare to tok to u.. gt no other meaning though, but i feeling kinda happy after tt.. haha.. wierd.. =)

tt's all lors.. i think i dying soon.. coz i everyday slp at 2am.. i must change or i'll really die soon.. siansssss... tata

Long Long Long update

2006-07-04T01:25:00.000+08:00

hmm.. has been quite some time i blog.. series of events happen.. sad to happy.. all have.. lets start from spec course then.. well.. went to spec course and found out tt i was appointed 2IC.. holy shit as i've nv taken such a big post b4.. but nxt day, kena arrow by 2WO mathi and i became OIC.. thanx to guo jun, the camp advisor aka lao jiao who guided me and help me though.. had fun and also experience new things. had a sense of achievement though coz i normally don wanna take up this post coz always feel unprepared. anyway, spec course ended and tt was my last camp. receive a nice card with nice drawing by syahir, eileen, shu qing and wenting. (hope i left no one out).. many thanx.. really much appreciated.. =)

now, nxt is training.. sometimes i really think i shouldn't give my partner so much pressure. am i in the wrong? i think i am. its just a CCA though.. everyone should love the trainings and enjoy them and not feel sad or moody at the end of the day. maybe i gonna row the boat with my partner in a normal way. no more pressure, no more scolding and etc. ur happy, i'm happy too.. winning has become less important to me.. the feelings of ppl around me is more important.. if tt person always say he want to win without putting in much effort, then he/she seriously need some reality check. i can see the effort that u put in, i can see that u had given ur best shot.. i can ask for nothing much but to ask u to pull through this race with much more endurance. let's encourage one another and train hard.. such that at the end of the day, we can tell ourself that we have no regrets as we have done our best. i don want u to feel sian after sunday training.. neither do i.. we will just row the boat like how we used to row T2 last time.. i think tt's the best.. so stay cool and happy.. =)

so much for training stuff, went out for kel's bdae the night before official sunday training.. had a gethering with ncc mates. had been a long time since we last gather. everyone njoy ourself though.. as usual, francis and jd brought laughter to us all.. sumtimes i really wonder how long can the friendship between me, francis and jd last. this yr marks the 7 yr of our friendship.. i really enjoy being with them, attending camp with them and going out with them. when we become adult and work, will this friendship still last? i really hope tt it will. anyway, went to SP after tt for some "night driving" session.. jd's XL185 is damn cool to ride on.. second time riding bike.. cool and fun!!! haha.. tried on both auto and manual car.. both are cool too.. ha.. anyway, we went home after tt..

kel's bdae was on sunday, but canoeist celebrated with him ONCE AGAIN on monday.. HAAHA!! i poured ice cube into his dick while he was being pinned down!!! next is hte dumping of HIM into the dustbin.. the ice are still inside his pants.. haah.. i bet his dick must have shrink!!! hohoho!!! now comes the season finale.. everyone kick the dustbin and he fell to the ground!! cool!! haha.. he ran out like some madass and faster let out the ice tt shrink his dick!! HAHAHAHAHAHAAH!!! fun fun fun!! hehe

anyway, francis, i've read ur blog.. u used to be very passionate towards ur course, but now u seems to hate it.. always saying tt it sucks.. well nothing is easy la.. esp when yr 3 liao.. no one is nt stresful.. so look on the bright side lor.. wanna run in schl, can jio me oso.. haha.. nt necessary must jio charles and kel only.. =x
so tt's all for today.. shall update again!! stay tuned!!! =D

today.. first time.. i....

2006-06-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

well well well.. after few days, i'm here to blog again.. me and my dumb stories.. everyday oso gt interesting happen, but i too busy to update.. lol.. anyway, today went for training as usual, nothing special. the only special things is went to find jia ying, then take elva's cab to SDBA.. (can sleep later).. hehe.. thanx elva and jia ying!!! =)

reached SDBA, gt to eat bee hoon for my breakfast.. mr cool(bernard) bought it for me and i have yet to return him money.. lol.. thanx thanx.. after eating, i see dennis face so black and the boats nt out, i faster ask everyone to bring out the boats, if nt later punishment.. lol.. but later i ask him, he say he tired.. so face black.. heng.. hehe.. took out the bar and begin to do sets. but after one set, cher come liaos.. so prepare to launch instead of continuing.. took k2 with bernard again.. my partner ma.. don take with him then take with who.. lol.. this time is cher's k2.. i nv realise tt summthing is wrong until the boat is in water.. my foot rest don have the nut to secure it!!! wtf.. i told cher, he say he tot he put it back, then he say lost again.. in other words, i lan lan.. just row.. lol

everything was find.. went to do a triangle for warm up.. smooth.. then cher did revision with us. row to B1 and out.. during the second time when we row into B1, we start to pick up momentum.. but capsize due to unknown reason. dotz... moral drop by 1/4.. after tt, its sprinting time.. did a few number of short sprint. k2 gt jia ying & elva, jeremy & colin, me and bernard. jeremy's boat capsize due to unknown reason too, then left with me and jia ying boat.. cher shouted GO and the boat was like on par.. by right is supposed to lead them by quite some distance, but this time is on par.. their reps is nt fast, but their strokes are nice. its either win them by alittle or lose.. cher still tell us, "i think they(the girls) can do better than u rall".. sian diao.. then the kuku bird foot rest pop out of the hole 2 times.. how to do better.. my moral drop by another 1/4.. now left 2/4.. nxt is 1000m sprint, now jeremy is back. we sprint, and capsize again at 500m mark.. was actually second.. but wats there to be proud of. serene is the BEST today!!! she like red cross member, going round to rescue ppl who capsize... u RAWKS!! haha.. this time when i get up onto the boat, i burning liao.. i really feel the heat in my body.. i'm furious, i'm frustrated. row back to pontoon to find the rest.

now is the last 1000m sprint.. cher shouted GO and we din want to lose out. jeremy capsize due to unknown reason, and we continue.. on par again. i really hot liao.. then tried to row faster. ask my partner to put in more strength in every stroke. lead them by a little now. but the boat nt really stable.. sian.. then now i see, they gonna catch up, and i cant take it anymore, i shouted at my partner to ask him to keep pu the pace and nt give up. we did win the girls, but once again, wats there to be proud of. i'm rude and i'm sorry, but if want to win with this kind of standard, can go train another 10 yrs. this is the facts. the results are clear.

reached there, i ask my partner nt to rest and continue to row and train strokes. only rest at the 500m mark. now is the 500m sprint. cher shouted GO and we sprint. on par again.. sian.. trying very hard to row faster. lead by alittle. then last 100m, i shouted again. coz i really burning. ask him to give his best shot. we made it by one boat length or lesser. row back to 500m mark again for the last 500m sprint. this time must really win, coz last sprint.. GO and we sprint. jeremy boat was fast and was by the side.. this time, we r in the first postion. the start was a gd one. at about 70m from the finishing buoy, i shouted again. i maybe very kao bei, but if this can make my partner burn and perform even better, y not. at 30m mark, we capsize. my moral drop to 1/4.. b4 we drop into water,i hurt my right rib.. think is wrong positioning.. i just float on the water, open my mouth and breath. i didn't care bout anything around me anymore. tears came out from my eyes. three years of rowing boat and this is the first time my tears came out. jeremy won the race and he rescue us. but he cant see tt i'm in tears as it is being camouflauge by the water. gt up the boat and row to suspension for some sort of warm down sprint.

cher took a few of us to learn strokes while other return. the session was a good one. my anger, my sian-ness was all being thrown aside and things became normal again. went back to do sets and bath. rain was big and weather was cold.. run thru the rain to get to stadium. tt stupid dennis saw me running to him, he still run. let me be in rain.. -.-" but he did shelter me at the end.. thanx dude.. haha
jia ying tries SO HARD to nt speak for 5 minutes.. she made it.. but she cant stop tokin at the food court in suntec. hahahahaahah!!!!!

saw this "SUPER CHIO" GIRl on bus with this very blue hair.. omg man.. like wig.. ahha.. wen to eat with one fo the NYJC guy and went back home. made a nice friend today(NY guy). =) at the end of the day, everything was back to normal and everything is good. just hope for a better performance next training.

Diving

2006-06-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

yohoooooooooooooooooo.. today onwards, i am MR LKK.. mr lok kok kia.. everything no change de.. tired of many things.. anyway, today went for driving revision.. i got the instructor i want, but i disappoint him toda.. sigh

the moving off was very good, no engine vibrating, no nothing... just move off smoothly.. then the first obstacle, turn at point 3 and do a S course.. tt one still ok.. but after tt, problems start to appear.. then direction changing was bad, always misjudge.. either stop too early or stop too late.. hmmm.. i must master it.. the circuit was still "OK".. my parking was alright.. then he say right turn adn go to main road..

turn left and out to main road, he ask me to turn right.. i signal and speed up. first mistake he tell me, red light further in front, y u increase ur acceleration by so much. then i slow down and wait for the turn. went to teck whye there to drive around. donno y, my reaction like so slow. a bus is coming out from the bus stop, i still pick up speed, wanting to go ahead. he told me off and so i slow down gradually. the bus move off and i was behind it. once again, i step on the accelerator again. this time is a down slope and the car was moving fast. the bus was infront and my slow reaction caused the instructor to break in hard for me.. wat the hell.. he keep saying," i donno y u must go so fast".. sigh.. i tot the remaining journey i could pls him, but no. during turn, i always last minute then shift down gear to turn. i turn with leg on brake(coz speed too fast) or leg on clutch(coz too late down gear) and he say wrong. he keep saying again,"i donno y u must do things at the last minute." sigh again.. at the super long slope, i stop at the stop line, pull up handbrake, signal right and prepare to go.. everything was rdy BUT i forgot to change from gear 2 to gear 1.. so dumb lor.. then the car die on the slope.. zzz.. like tt oso can forget.. fish man

for turning from main rd to side rd, i again reduce speed and down gear too late.. i reach the point, just turn without braking.. then resulted in a wide turning.. wa.. i feel very bad.. y suddenly become so noob.. as if its my first few lesson on road.. shit man.. then after tt rd, went back to main rd again.. he ask me to do a U turn.the U turn was alright. but before the U turn, he tell me," you make feel like going back to the circuit. coz u nv give me the sense of secure and steadiness". i hear liao i sian 3/4.. then i tell myself i wanted to drive properly. then finally i did a nice stop in fron tof the red light. from gear 4 to gear 1.. when reaching bbdc, he ask me to turn in, but gt car on my right, i cannot get in.. and there is a bus broke down infront.. so many haazards.. sian.. i miss the turn.. zzz.. then went on to bukit batok ave.. can see tt his blood gonna boil.. but bo bian.. then drive, mistake again.. mistake and mistake.. dumb.. few minutes before lesson end, the "debrief", he tell me the last few session he took me was ok, but today was horrible.. my bad.. and i apologise.. hais.. if continue liddat, can die in tp liao.. hais..

went to the bus stop after tt to wait for bus, those NB-CB smoker cant stop smoking.. the whole bus stop all smoke.. the light at the bus stop shine downwards, can see how concentrated the smoke is.. then one dickhead keep talking on his phone with a cigarette on his hand.. smoke and talk.. make me become a farking passive smoker.. CB dickhead.. lucky bus come early.. zzz.. sian diao lor..

sad life and sad day for lok kok kia(me).. zzz T_T

Training today!!!

2006-05-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

woohooooo... njoyed today training.. only capsize twice today.. first is by mistake, second is ppl bang us.. cool.. anyway, today training was kinda shag.. but i'm lovin' it. haha. if we continue to row like this, can prepare to lose until the face donno put where.. still gt the balancing and strokes to work on.. hmmmm..

before we launch off today, we start with the swinging of arms, 300 front and 300 back. after that, row to shears bridge and back to 500m mark.. listen and watch what cher demonstrate to us and off we go to practice it.. sprint some short distances and back.. at the same time, learning the strokes, trying to improve.. after training ends, we return to shore. boht my arms like very light.. lol.. went back to sdba, it was freaking cold!!! thanx to the rain!!! wash the boat and ate some really nice food that jiaying, serene, geraldine brought.. wooohooo.. but we still gt to do sets under the rain. everyone was shivering while waiting for their turn.. all dancing around to keep themselves warm.. hahahahahahaha!!! the 1 minute burst of military press nv warm me up, its the 1 minute burst of biceps that warm me up.. lols.. after that, as time do not permit us to carry on further, we went to the stadium to bath.. and suntec to EAT!!!

reach the foodcourt, gt the "gonna fall sick" feeling as whole body kinda hot and eye lids are kinda heavy.. eat eat eat and off we go.. went to the convention centres to say "HI" to yihan(coz kel wanna go) then we go back.. tt LEXY made me waste 80 cents on mrt.. ask me to take train when i gt straight bus.. but oso gd la.. if nt i think i will hit ppl again on the bus, coz no place to seat and very sleepy.. hohoho.. reached home, came online and fall flat..

THE END!!!!! wat a day today.. fuck common test, its getting nearer and nearer.. i'm going nuts!!!!!!!!!!!! x_x

Joke of the day

2006-05-24T01:04:00.000+08:00

awritez.. after so many months, finally i came to update.. actually alot of things happen, but i just don want to blog it.. coz lazy.. lol.. perhaps i should say, i don have the habit to blog. anyway, today, joke of the day as follow:

Me: eh cher, how do you equate the formula S12 = S21

Mr sow: you are chinese rite?

Me: YA LA!! (wa kao.. he taught me for 4 weeks still donno)

and the question continue.. wa piang.. i gt so dark meh.. become malay/indian..
suddenly ask me this kind of question and make me stun for 5 milli second.. LOL.. just becoz i ask him in ang moh, he ask if i'm a chinese.. diao..

anyway, my right arm recover alot liao.. but when i stretch my right tricep, i must bend my body down.. last time don need de.. but now i need.. if nt will have a wierd feeling.. injury liaos.. sian.. but at least can join back training.. training gonna get tougher and tougher.. but hardwork pays off.. wanna win == train hard + think smart.. was in the gym ytd and i felt very guilty.. i was assisting(wrong position) elva with the military press when she suddenly let go of the bar.. i couldn't hold the bar in time and she sprain her hand.. i think i am evil. but i am really very sorry for what i have done. tui bu qi!!!

after training, gt a super duper X 100 times long meeting(to me is shooting session, to them is trash talk).. maybe there are certain things i shouldn't say out here.. but i should say that the term "OUTCAST" is nt avoidable and BONDING is important, but it cant be forced. tt's all i can say. correct me if i am wrong. anyway, common test is coming.. no study break b4 the test.. wtF lor.. donno who plan this timetable.. can go stuff salty vegetables into his mouth, bang wall and die.. i'm sure everyone will put their hands together and clap.. LOL.. dumb.. anyway, stress is gonna pile up again.. this semester is none other than killing.. may i pull through with your strength, lord..

tt's all folks.. shall blog again.. SAY SAY SAY!!! HEHE!! ^_^

resulTS

2006-03-24T09:31:00.000+08:00

wooohooooo!!!! so happy.. finally got wat i am aiming for since last semester.. really a surprise man.. i seriously believe this sentence "the more u think of it, the more u will not achieve.. if the less or u nv think of it, u will achieve it.." just like a surprise..

i woke up at 0810 and manage to force myself back to slp.. i woke up again at 0835.. since results will only be out at 0900.. i only want myself to check my result at tt time.. i set my phone to silent mode as i don wan to get disturbed.. ha.. then i close my eyes again.. after awhile, i open my eyes.. it only pass 5 min.. and the time is 0840... wa.. i so nervous and anxious lor.. then my feet start to feel very cold.. must use blanket to cover.. keep tryin to force myself back to slp, but always open my eyes 5min later.. time seem to pass so slow.. then when its 0858.. the time also pass so slow.. normally when we do bridge during training.. this 2 min pass very fast de.. anyway, its finally its 9am.. went to login and check my result.. cover my eyes with one hand and see my result.. its a surprise!! :D

good luck to all!!!! :D

regatta

2006-03-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

wa.. today won my second gold medal for regatta.. so far tt's wat i got in my poly life.. but this gold medal also nt canoeing de.. if is canoeing get de, confirm very honoured.. but its not.. anyway, we won the committee team today.. lex was so bias.. bias bias and bias.. make his team with strong ppl.. then the rest just put in team 2.. but team 2 won!! yay!! won team 1(lex team) by 40 micro seconds.. lol.. fierce fight.. we won both first and second for the regatta race.. but overall its good la.. the team won something.. but just to say, even if ur opponent are very strong ppl, u got to have the confidence in urself.. if u have the confidence, u already won 60% of the race.. cheering makes up another 10% too.. haha..

good job nacc.. everyone done well.. :D

mr 500

2006-03-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. today was a great day.. was my 2nd sprinting competition, MR 500.. which was being held at seletar reservoir.. and today is also the first time i witness dragon boat race.. kinda interesting.. today team ngee ann did their best and everyone row with no regrets.. for those first time participating in sprinting competition, take this as a good experience for the future..

got there at 0915am and waited 6hrs for my race.. but in between, get to see my team mates competing.. shouted to the top of my voices and cheer out loud for them.. cheering is very impt as it really boost the morale of the person who is racing.. so lucky to see my francis doing the filming at the ending point.. luckily he was there, can talk cock with him.. haha.. then after tt saw syahir.. think he was with his gf but he din want to let me know.. hohoho.. anyway, althouhg clemence, alfred and jia ying got 3rd and 2nd position, but they are not qualified.. kind of sad.. but once again, winning is not everything..

got 4th for my race.. i felt tt i have given my best, but actually i lack of endurance.. spectator's comment is the best feedback ever.. i'm sorry partner(bernard) if we got 4th because of my lag of endurance.. but at least we manage to win nyp... lol.. nothing to be proud of anyway.. then once again, watch my other team mates race and cheer for them.. after the race, there was this AAR(after action review).. but they call it debrief anyway..

at the debrief, everyone say out their own comments.. when its my turn, i donno wat to say, then anyhow shoot.. i doubt if anyone knows what i am driving at.. it seems tt at this debrief, many things were being shoot out.. come to think of it, i really feel guilty.. in the previous post, i say that i lag of motivation and determination to attend training, but a person who is really passionate and love this sport, will never say this kind of shit things.. come to think of it, i am just giving myself the excuse of skipping training.. then after the debrief, i really wish to change myself.. and attend each and every training wholeheartedly.. a person who wants to clinch a medal or gain something, he had to work hard for it.. if one times is not enuff, he will work 2-3 times harder for it.. this time i really hope tt i will not be a NATO(No Action Talk Only) kia.. i wanna be serious le.. other than this, discipline is also very impt.. this really shows tt i lag of discipline.. few years ago, after i passed out from NCC specialist course, i thought of how to tekan my cadets.. by askin them to do push up, spelling the DISCIPLINE word.. each alphabets 10 push up.. and will add up a total of 100 push ups.. maybe i should do this punishment myself.. should do 20 or 30 push up for each alphabets instead..

i don really like my own character.. got alot of bad points.. but bad points can be corrected, its up to myself.. all in the mind.. however, its definitely not easy.. anyway, just to say this MR 500 really let me think of alot of things.. anyway, ngee ann sprinters, u really did a good job today.. =)

weak

2006-03-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

today...................... feel so sian + moody + no mood.. 2 rounds of campus run, make me run till almost Knock out.. was able to complete and catch up with everyone till the very last 400m, when everyone was running on the track while i almost black out.. freaking weak... who to blame? no one but myself, for not training hard.. has been such a long time since i run till gonna black out.. i don like today performance.. totally sucks. the push up, dips, flutter kick,, crunches, all i am able to complete.. only the running part makes me completely turn off.. actually is because i cant hang on to the end(left 400m) and also my stamina lose to junior polo girls.. they can keep up with the pace while i cant. wtf.. senior liao, stamina still lose to junior polo girls.. sigh.. suck man.. i lost to HER in stamina.. i lose out to HER in the run. its time for me to wake up liao.. give me a rock now and let me bang on it. so tt i can always remind myself to WAKE UP MY BLOODY IDEA. fook myself la.. next time, i'm not gonna lag behind!!!

WEAK <--- this word very suitable for me. screw myself.. i'm a weak fark.

Away

2006-03-10T12:28:00.000+08:00

ahhh... will be away for NCC camp for this 3 days.. held at henderson sec.. sounds fun but actually ok only. its not as gd when compared to the past.. basically just attend the camp to OVERSEE only. cant do anything much. anyway, since its my holiday and i got nothing to do, might as well go there and pass time. can take this time to train up my physical with those little kids in schl. make them suffer.. lol.. anyway tt's all then.. nothing interesting.. signed off.

UPDATES

2006-03-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

sorry everyone.. here is the latest update.. haha.. was kinda lazy to log in and update my blog.. sorry to my FANS out there who are always waiting to read my post.. i apologise.. my bad.. HEHE jus joking.. anyway, alot of things happen back then.. marathon, exam, assignment and more.. actually got alot of things to write, but just don feel like logging in and update.. hmmm.. finally, nows the holiday, i cant work.. so boring.. rotting at home.. but luckily got prince of tennis to watch.. a very nice anime though.. all thanx to jia ying.. save me from the trouble of downloading.. ;)

anyway, went training today.. drag myself there as usual.. something wrong with my mind.. always land training or sea training, like wanna escape from it.. but once i reach the place and starts to train, all this negative mindset seems to be gone.. y is it like tt? i think i need determination and motivation.. but where can i look for all this? i'll try to correct this dumb and stupid mindset that i have in my mind.. has been 3-4 weeks since i last ran and stepped into gym.. i find the trainig awrites la.. nt tt bad.. was jogging to bt timah nature reserve after doing 450 push and super aps.. while jogging, was quite sian, then think of a lame song.. canoeist version of army song.. lol

Training to be Canoeist,
To row for our team.
Once in our life,
Three years of our time.
Have you ever wonder, y we must row.
Because we love our team,
And we want it to be great, to be great.. HIA!!

maybe i'm too bo liao.. but who cares man.. anyway, i really envy our captain.. mr dennis. he train until very tired liao, but still push on. maybe thats the role of a captain, but he definitely does a great job.. tt's what i see in him this few training.. all this is a compliment i guess.. just hope tt i'll have a strong mental like he does.. then i guess tt's all bah.. will still update as i at home rotting.. too sian liao.. tata

blister day

2006-02-12T00:49:00.000+08:00

woke up early in the morning and went for training. gotta complete 4 super triangle today.. was kinda sian when i think of the distance.. but marathon is just a week away.. got to train up as its only the 4th time i row in a double canoe with bernard. took 2hr and 28 min to complete the 4 super big triangle.. was kinda satisfy with it though its still considered slow.. put down my paddle and look at both palms. got 6-7 blisters.. so shiok.. it is even worst than round unbin marathon.. ha.. but its ok la.. but wat worried me most is my back.. i cant bend down swiftly.. i need to do it slowly.. my back is screwed.. omg.. i scared that i will be like kel.. hopefully i will recover by tomolo and nothing bad will happen.

during the 4 rounds, i'm actually quite er xin la.. lol.. keep farting.. got 15-20 times.. i sit in front summore.. the wind blow the nice smelling scent behind and bernard smells it all.. =x donno wat happen to my stomach.. just cant stop farting.. sorry ar bernard.. its not like i can control myself from farting.. hehe.. finish washing boats, i went home.. cant do the ending sets anymore as i am just liek a piece of dead meat.. counting down to marathon.. keep my finger cross.. all the best to everyone who participate in the marathon.. =)

movieeee

2006-02-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

wa.. has been quite sometime since i last entry.. anyway, went to watch two movies straight in a row.. watched fearless first then watch i not stupid too.. both shows are great.. damn good.. rate them 10/10.. watch fearless, some tears roll down my cheek when i see him die... but when i watch i not stupid, the tears keep rolling down(at the end of the movie).. really very gan dong.. maybe i too emotional ba.. but i always enjoy jack neo film.. his film always got lame and funny action involve.. wahaha,.. sad but touching and nice story.. tt's all folks.. =)

Character, Personality, Life

2006-01-28T03:40:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ)

You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.

You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.

A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.

In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.

At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.

With others, you tend to be polite and formal.

As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.

On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Do You Live Your Life?

TRAINING & shirt.

2006-01-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

wa.. today went for training.. got the kind of gonna "DIE" feeling.. sprint 6 X 400m around the track.. having intervals of 2 min break after each round.. just feel like throwing out the Alfredo(pasta) that i ate in the afternoon... but continue to push on.. after running, i am damn shag.. cant walk straight.. y am i so weak..... zzz.. after tt went to jump steps.. another killer.. need to jump eight times of 11 steps.. my legs like jelly.. cant stop shaking.. after the jumping of steps, my brain pain.. then feel like puking.. but its actually "nao cong xue".. really scared i will just collapse and die in 1 hr time.. lol.. also trying to keep myself awake as i scared i lie down, i'll leave this world.. =x.. i seriously needa train more.. hais.. when will i attend every training and not skip training? i donno.. i need the motivation man.. screw myself for skipping though.. but sometimes i'm just too freaking lazy.. haiz..

anyway, was happy that i bought a shirt today.. after so many years, finally buy a shirt for new year.. but y am i so hum ji.. see the shirt tt i find it nice, but don dare to try.. -.-'' shopping phobia.. lolx.. need to improve in this also.. many thanx to lex,dennis and jeremy though.. =D

I&E event and SOMETING UNBELIEVABLE

2006-01-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

wa.. today is the day for I&E event and i witness something unbelievable.. we are organising a kayaking expedition from kallang to east coast.. it sounds like a short trip to canoeist but it definitely sounds like a "long" trip to those participant.. today i saw bernard capsize not long after we launch.. then suddenly i hear him shout..i turn back immediately and saw his mouth expression scolding F**K.. hhahaha.. so funny la.. i cannot believe it.. (bernard don kill me hor.. i post it up in my blog).. hehe.. today reach SDBA around 0745.. then saw kel.. he help me carry out those boats and check the condition.. load those checkeD boat onto the trolley.. count and count.. the number of boats just nice.. so heng...

then peter and dennis went to pick up those participant.. suddenly, dennis call me tt got 2 xtra ppl popped out.. omg.. boat number just nice.. now i lag of 1 boat.. headache.. then i bo bian.. went to ask cher for help.. initially i tot must pay him the rental fee.. but he say don need.. i felt so happy.. can save money.. lol.. i borrowed a s2 from cher and the problem was solved.. thanx cher.. u rawks!!

peter gave the briefing as i settle all those boat stuff.. once everything is settled, eathen, jeremy and collin bring the participants to the launching point.. everyone launch their boat and wait for us under the merdeka bridge.. when everyone were out in sea, eathan taught them basic strokes and how to navigate.. briefing finish, we begin our expedition.. at first, i tot it was good.. but i see the way they paddle.. OMG.. don need to go east coast liao.. normally for marathon training, we took around 30 min to complete one triangle(4Km).. the participant gave me a huge surprise.. they took 30 min to paddle from pontun to sheares bridge.. tt is like taking 30 minutes for 1km.. omg... lex is the expedition and i can see that he is falling asleep as the speed is very slow.. keep stopping to wait for ppl to catch up... went out from kallang basin.. it starts to get tropy.. mr chong capsized after awhile.. one of his sunglasses lens drop into the sea.. overall he donated his car keys, one black lens to the sea.. lol.

we carry on rowing.. at the construction there.. the wave is very high.. very powerful as alot of boats go thru and fro.. mr chong was unable to go as the stability is not there due to certain reason.. =X

pitched up at gay beach.. saw the participant.. u splash me with water. i splash u with water.. lol.. gay beach has nothing anyway.. after break, we row back to kallang basin for lunch.. then took photo.. and we kayak back to the launching point.. load the kayaks up the trolley and row back to SDBA for washing.. after tt, peter lead the participant to bath and the event ended.. glad to hear from teacher he is satisfied.. thanx mr chong.. went home and slp afterwards.. so tired..

(P.S thanx to all fellow sprinters who helped out today.. i really appreciate it.. =D)

past

2006-01-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

wa.. was very bored, nothing to do.. then browse through those pictures in my labtop. came across with this two photos when i am in sec 1.. wearing ncc uniform.. i doubt u rall can recognise me... lol..

11B

2006-01-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

wa. yesterday went to cmpb to submitmy last sem result and retrieve my green ic(11B)... went to the counter to wait for my queue number to be called.. when its my turn, i walk to the counter and sat down.. she ask if i'm a regular and i say yes.. then she search and search.. she tell me no have.. then gotta check for me.. 5 minutes later, she tell me its ready for collection, but its at lvl 2, haven send down.. then i tell myself.. did i come here abit too fast? later she think y i so gan jiong.. lol.. after tt i went up.

I climb the spiral staircase up to lvl 2.. when i reach lvl 2, it was abit quiet.. just a passageway way with rooms at the side.. donno how to describe.. but i seriously think tt place can be used to shoot horror film.. LOL.. i walk to the last room and went in.. i submit my name and he went to process everything for me.. 5 - 10 minutes later, he call me and pass me a package.. i saw my 11b and my dogtag inside.. the picture was awritez but my hair sucks.. lol.. i gave him my pink ic and he ask me to fill in a form.. finish doing everything, i saw my pink ic being taken away.. i was so sad as i bid farewell to it.. LOL.. =x

10 years later, when i come to collect my pink ic, i will see two different person.. lol. one young and one old.. but of coz i don hope to get back my pink ic in 10 years time.. but in 35 years time as i hope to continue.. 10 years later, come out.. do wat? drive bus? fry french fries in macdonald? lol.. donno.. so hopefully can carry on till i'm old..

what a "GREAT" day....

2006-01-08T16:17:00.000+08:00

woke up in the morning.. was raining.. very cold... nothing to do, i went back to sleep as i got training later in the afternoon.. woke up again at 1200.. was still raining.. i msg dennis.. ask him got go down anot.. no reply.. i call him once, nv pick up.. call him twice, nv pick up..was thinking maybe he forgot to bring his phone.. or some other reason.. ok nvm.. i scared he go there alone, so i decided to go down.. even if he is not there, i can ask juniors if they got see him anot.. get myself changed, packed my stuff and went out with an umbrella.. reached kallang mrt at 1.25.. i was late... but the strange thing is tt y he nv call.. normally if i'm late, he will call adna sk where am i.. then i walk to SDBA.. walk and walk.. my whole pants drenched.. got umbrella == no have.. then i reached SDBA.. saw wei qiang talkin to cher.. ok.. i walk in... i saw everyone. all standing around the rack.. then i saw dennis.. he told me he finish training already... and say he forgot to tell me that he go for morning slot.. then i was like.. oh ok.. so who will row boat with me now.. then clemence walk to me.."hey liang... u come for wat.." the weather was cold.. but as i talk him, tell him y i come and who will row with me, my farkin face feel so hot, like got the burning sensation.. so obvious.. lim peh du lan.. then i nv talk much.. wanna turn and go already, dennis say got jun sheng and lex.. maybe they will come.. i called them.. both of them say not coming.. then i tell myself.. wow.. its time to go home.. greaT.. bid every farewell and i leave.. i slowly walk to kallang mrt station, the wind blow and blow... now my bag also wet..

as i was walking, i think.. today i saw an airplane take off from sdba... and its flying high.. wat airway was that? it was pangseh airway.. i donno y i feel so du lan.. u can say i'm petty, coz liek tt oso du lan.. whatever.. i don care.. went to tiong bahru.. bought two gundam to satisfy myself.. just wanna vent my anger by buying things... after tt, went to wait for my parents at tiong bahru bus stop.. they saw me and ask... "y ur face so black..." i nv reply.. just say i BU shuAng.. after eating lunch, feeling better... du lan oso no use... for fuck.. just let it be.. friend and teammate after all.. he did apologise after all.. anyway everything is back to normal now.......................................

wat a boring day..

2006-01-06T20:48:00.000+08:00

so sian now.. test finish le.. so far so good for the two paper.. should be happy ma.. but i feel so sian.. after test, ppl go happy.. i go back school to prepare for tml cca orientation.. no equipment, no nothing.. headache.. and our interior designer mr Junda canont make it today.. even more jia lat.. just make do with wat we have.. i just suck at designing.. lol.. anyway, the display thing are almost done.. lets split it into 4 section.. 1,2,3,4.. first part, badges and rank display.. tt wan i think its ok.. second part.. knn.. like magazine and paper anyhow throw.. so messy.. all teachers idea.. so kuku lor.. then 3 and4 part still ok i think... tml junda see liao confirm wanna change the whole room design.. lol.. walk here and there.. suddenly moodless.. donno y.. think i lack of slp.. see the way the cadets train.. feel like screwing them.. but nv.. so let them be... haiz..

Sompa session

2006-01-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

waaa.... fews days nv come and write new entry le.. anyway, today omrning, i went to CMPB to take my oath(sompa).. coz i sign on as a regular in the airforce.. was kinda interesting though.. but actually nothing much.. lol.. just raise up ur right hand and follow wat the captain read out.. so much for tt.. waited for quite some time before the airforce school personnel came down.. they say got anything happen, must update them.. got relationship problem also can call them up.. i wonder y... scared we go commit suicide coz of BgR?? lolx.. after the song pa session, the captain start to show some of his power.. lol.. vulgarities start to shoot out from his mouth.. lol.. he talked to us, we lan lan, nv reply.. can see that he wanna screw us with a screw driver.. =x..

sign on liao, kinda ma fan.. go abroad must apply for permit and notify them.. even if wanna go JB eat seafood oso must tell them.. but must get use to it oso.. =x.. oh ya..i made 1 or 2 new friends too.. all gonna be my future colleague.. so now must pei yang gan qing first.. LOL.. kiddin

went back to school to study for my common test paper.. like nothing to study liao, but still must make myself feel more relieve by attending one or two question.. LOL.. the test was over.. think can scpre 90 and above.. =D.. hopefully lor.. keep my fingers cross.. hope the lecturer don minus too many marks..

jun sheng arrrrrrr...... i nv copy ur blog laaaa.. i only cope some of ur source code only ma..... i got change the context oso... blogsite == source code ma.. all about source code.. so i nv really copy ur blog la... i change some of the thingssss liao.. is it ok? not ok i go change again.. LOL.. but like nothing more to change le.. coz i see here and there, all the source code like more or less the same.. =X anyway, if you still dont liek it, tell me ok.. sorry le.. =X

Setting up of blog part 2

2006-01-02T02:47:00.000+08:00

woohooo.. finally set up my blog site liao.. but still got alittle things i donno.. sian.. anyway, i was glad tt it was finally up..

ermz.. i just link people without asking their pemission.. i'm really sorry.. if you are offended or not happy, tell me ok.. i will remove ur link.. thanx..

Settint up of BLog Part 1

2005-12-31T03:15:00.000+08:00

wha.... finally i know how to set up a blog.. may be easy to some ppl, but definitely kinda complicated to me.. coz i'm computer noob.. =x

still struggling.. should be up soon? i guess? hahaha

Suddenly....

2005-04-24T09:54:00.000+08:00

suddenly...... i realise sumthing.... got a kind of mix feeling.... sian... i donno..... forget bout it ba... i cant... sigh... donno... when its available.... balls dangle in the air, don wanna get it... now tt its taken... feeling regretful?? [si-bei-sian]

Sergeant Affendy's Motorbike

2005-03-23T14:14:00.000+08:00

ahhhh.. today affirmation ceremony rehearsal... get to go back to NCC HQ... saw mi favourite district specialist... sgt AFFENDY!!! haha... still as blur as ever.. =X

went to the singapore indoor stadium to put on the decoration and after that, eat air in the indoor stadium... lol**.. after tt, we darn hungry... then ask sgt affendy if can ta pao some food... din no tt he so on la.. he just agree and ask me to follow him... get to ride on his motorbike... song bo!!! after like 10 years? then i get to ride a bike again?? the feeling is so shioKKK la... omG... but kinda dangerous... hahaz... anyway, sgt affendy is a safety driver seh.. drive not more than 80km/h... narrow orad onli 30km/h... hahaz...

anyway, he leaving ncc liaoz... sad lo.. wonder who will be the new district specialist... hoping for a good one though... =)

my JAcket

2005-03-21T02:11:00.000+08:00

ooo.. long time nv update again.. no time le... bo bianz... anyway, finally got mi IVP jacket.. haha.. BUT... its a XXL.. for damn obese ppl to wear one la.. i wear liao like those sing chinese opera ppl like tt.. sleeve so long and big... so darn funny la... lol... but its kinda cool ya.. having this jacket... not easy to earn it though.. but if i'm really cold.. it keep me WARM... this is very impt to mi... jacket... I LOVE YOU!!! =X

RECORD OF THE DAY...

2005-03-06T12:34:00.000+08:00

today.... is saturday... saturday means the sixth day of the week... i repeat saturday... went to Kallang to train on my K2 as nxt week is my competition. got a event in nxt week competition. K2 1000m. when i was in the KAllang basin.. i could see CJC, HJC, RJC, SJI, NTU and many many other poly, jc and secondary school students, training hard for nxt week competition. everyone was sprinting with all their might, using up all their strength and make sure they goes back with the "shag" mood. morale was high for all people.

As for me... things seems to be different. i keep capsize... capsize.. and CAPSIZE.. got myself a record of capsizing 14 times and more in a single day... **lolx** got whack on the head by one of my canoeing mate's paddle and got knock on the left eye as the wave washes the K2 towarsd me.. **oucH**.. can say today abit sway also.. anyway, my yan dao partner got drag down by me.. he is definitely angry, but i can do notting. the tailbone of mine definitely wont cooperate.. i cannot balance well on the K2... **sigh**.. one more week left and one more training to competition... i only pray for the best. trying to be slow and steady on the day of competition and pray that we wont capsize. i don mind getting last for competition.. but i'm not taking a single event.. i'm taking K2, a double man's event. i cannot apply the same thinking on my yan dao partner. everyone has got different vision.. i really hope for the best ya...

quite sometime later, we change over.. seeing that my yandao partner goes well with lex, i really hope that lex will replaced me.. each time i took K2 with my yan dao partner and we capsize, i will not stop thinking about how he feel. i feel very bad ya.. but i cant help it... striving for the best but end up capsizing. how to solve this problem??? i donno............. **sian***

but luckily, the going back part is a good want. we went quite smoothly ya... if the previous training will be that smooth, then i will not have any worries liao.. **haizzzzz*****

I Cant***

2005-02-19T17:46:00.000+08:00

ya its me again... of coz its me coz its me blog... lol* anyway, damn bored again... wanna rattle bout relationship probz again... see her, wanna talk, but donno wat to talk... when in a conversation, hope tt can chat for a long period of time.. halfway through, out of topic and the conversation ended.. became very quiet again... wat can i do...

the feeling is still as strong as ever... haven dropped alittle at all but increasing instead.. ask myself y, i donno y.. who got the answer?? no one other than god.. [i think]..

its kind of miserable when u do not dare to approach her. Only dare to hide behind a wall and admire her secretly... sufferring in silence though.. this feeling really sux... the feeling of scared being rejected is too strong, cant lift up my own courage... S I-B E I-S I A N la...

shall i forget bout her? i think i should.. BUT............................ I............... Cant.................... =(

Tag board

2005-02-19T11:49:00.000+08:00

wa... juz got myself a tag board and WHO IS TT TRICIA... kNN.. anyhow put... wat miss me... i donno even know who the phuck are u... cock sia...

Feelings of me

2005-02-12T19:16:00.000+08:00

itS kinda late now... 3.15 am and i'm still not asleep.. notthing to do then thought of updating my blog.. ya.. life is really boring at times... always wanted a partner but cant find...

there is this person tt i'm very interested in.. but juz couldn't bring myself to approach tt person.. i always thought to myself, y am i so scared to approach tt person.. whenever i logged into msn and saw tt person online, i always wanted to chat with tt person.. but we will have nothing to chat about if we everyday chat... so i choose not to talk instead.. who knows if tt person might find me irritating.. i nv know.. zzz

each time i browse thru tt person friendster, i will be lookin thru the pics of tt person.. the feeling juz tend to get stronger ya.. but i can do nothing much since i'm such a coward... everyday, tt person image will float in my mind.. only can think and nothing much... guess this is wat ppl mean when they say they miss someone.. now i really xperience the true meaning of missing someone... haix..... **sigh** =(

2005-02-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

This is Me lo.. smart???

FINALLY!!!

2005-02-09T14:50:00.000+08:00

heyZ peePz.. finally i'm updating miiiiiiiii blog... got time to update, i lazy.. no time to update, due to study or some other thing... come to think of it.. last week was mi common test week.. and the last last week was mi study break.. but i waster the entire week... wat the F**K la... knn.. then last monday AEL(Analogue Electronics) paper. was struggling throughout the test.. left the common test hall with a foolish smile, knowing that i might not make it.. *sighhhh* came out of the common test hall, check answer with mi friend and mi txt book.. OMG!!! so Much careless anD stuPID mistake... then became MOODY since then...

guEss the AEL paper was a wake up call or mi... begin to rush for other subject... rush/chiong/pia for other three subject... hoping for the best since i have already "flunk" one subject...

got back mi results on tuesday(8/2/2005)... rest was ok.. but mi AEL got ;ast in class.. carefully browse thru the ppr, i notice tt careless mistake is the result of this beautiful mark.. **lol** anyway, its over... strive harder for exam and achieve mi aim/dream/goal to enter avionivs electronics.. muZ jia yoU liaoz lo.. (",)(",)

An Unforgettable Sunday Canoeing Training

2004-12-20T11:33:00.000+08:00

well.. i've been looking forward to this training... i really want to return to the sprinters team.. its been one month since i last went for sunday training.. really don wish to skip any more training.. since i join this CCA, i shall to take pride in it.. now tt there is no more NCC events, its time to concentrate on my poly cca and my studies..

went for training ya.. i was alone as i reach SDBA(Singapore Dragon Boat Association) quite early.. so i sat down and took a short nap. it was 0810hrs at tt time. then i hear foot step walking towards my direction.. when i open my eyes, i saw a pair of legs in front of me. when i look up, it was my captain.. the first thing he ask was," y are u slpin down here". lolx...

around 0845hrs,everyone is here and all of us change into our running attire and go for a run.. run and run and run and finally we are back. witout any delay, we load our canoe onto the rack and push out to the shore for launching. since it was one month since i last canoe, i haf problem balancing it. everythoing ws fine till i canoe till shears bridge. trying the turn the canoe towards the right, so i tried to edge the canoe.. but i fail.. i capsize and drank the kallang salt water.. quite tasty.. lolx... got rescue by polo girls ya.. thanx for their help.. i back into my T1...

the warming up session is to paddle to shears bridge and then to the suspension bridge. after the polo girls rescue me, i paddle to the suspension bridge. on my way there, i had problems controlling the direction of the canoe.. it juz keep going left despite how hard i try to counter it. got to do stern rather in order to change the direction. reach the suspension bridge, go in and out one time.. then wait for coach to come. coach revise different strokes wit us.. actually is revise with all sprinter but since i miss out so many training, things tt coach teach, seems new to me.. so peeps out there, if u join one things, go for all the training or u will miss out alot.

went to apply strokes that coach revised with everyone, its realli very effective.. beginning to feel the glide of the canoe.. then try to go straight.. feeling quite gd ya.. after all those coaching, the training is sort of "over".. everyone to form teams of three.. gonna haf a competition between each other.. juz a 20m race i think.. see whu can move straight and the fastest.. its mi turn.. chiong and chiong and chiong.. till haf way, i lose mi balance.. i shout as i cap.. from low pitch to high pitch.. lolx.. everyone laugh coz its like damn funny la.. lolx... i was rescued by coach.. can see the unhappiness expression on his face ya..

after a few rounds, the sea training ended... went back to the shore, pitch up our canoe and push back to SDBA. on our way back.. something bad happen.. no 1 had ever told me that we cant go in and cut across the ropes tt were being tied to the yellow beacon. The beacon basically seperates the place where police coast guard park their boats. i just cut across the yellow beacon and coach caught me.. he immediately chouted ,"you owe me 50 CHIN UPS".. woah.. power sia.. then i say ok and quietly paddle back to the shore.. was hoping that he will forget wat he say.

after washing all the canoe and put back to the racks, we got to do a closing set. we do push up in a different manner and also do leg exercise. scissors kick i think.. got to keep our leg straighten as we move up and down. got to coordinate together as we do.. kinda fun ya.. hahaz.. after tt, we do 20 star jump.. tt want even better.. jump till leg soft.. lolx.. then the last thing is do 6 sets of 8 chin up.. which adds up to a total of 48 chin up.. i merely did 8, 4 with assist and i'm shagged.. then coach gave us a debrief and say that everything we do, is juz the beginning... more hell to come.. *woohoooo* the debrief is over and i was preparing to bath..

JUZ THEN... coach say.. "whu owe me 50 chin up"? i raised up my hand and carry on 50.. thanx to both of my sprinter mates, whu are very willing to assist me. they keep encouraging me. after i does 10 chin up, i split the remaining 40 chin ups in to 10 sets of 4. each set, my mate assisted me.. left the last 3 sets, skin from both my left palm and right palm peel off.. i ask the coach if i can continue nxt week and he say no.. therefore, i got to endure the pain and finish off my last 12 chin ups.. pull and pull and finally, its over.. thanx to my two mates.. ic ompleted it.. after tt, we went to bath and went home..

after today, i've learn my lesson. not allowed to cross the beacon as we might get knock down in the lifeguard parking premises and the in charge who is the coach, got to go behind bars.. so canoeing peeps out there, beta watch your direction ya.. anyway, special thanx to dennis and jiame for your help.. =D

17th b'daE

2004-12-14T14:20:00.000+08:00

17 years ago, on this date, i came to this earth.. a cute little chubby baby whose name is liang cheng came to this world. And now, 17 years later, he became a grown up man.. lolx... hopefully those bad things will change from bad to good.. hope to be successful in my CCA, studies, relationship(IF any) and bonding with friends and family member/relative/cousin and bla bla bla.. lolx

And also, thanx worx, all my fellow friends whu went out to celebrate my 17th birthday wit me.. gonna treat u rall back in the future.. and mel, thanx for ur b'dae gift ya.. appreciate it v.much. =)

ICEP(Part 2)

2004-12-13T08:45:00.000+08:00

aw.. ICEP is really damn fun lo.. really miss those foreign cadets very much.. Booked in to HQ NCC on the wednesday night and stay through out till sunday. on the wednesday nite, was a CAmp pinnacle nite. Its was very interesting as different country will go up and present their own country thing. Be it culture or lame jokes or funny things, all of them are so interesting.

The australian cadets presented some of their cultural thing if i'm not wrong. kinda interesting ya.. then follow by the america cadets. the american do some marching actions with the US army song. the US army song was a very nice song. i like it very much. the US cadets certainly did a gd job. after the US cadets is the hong kong cadets. they presented a skit about chinese new year. its not that funny or interesting but its the effort that counts ya. so i still appreciate wat they ded. following up is the Uk cadets. they presented a song to everyone. however, this songs requires volunteer to do action. CLTs and cadets are being called up. i'm one of them of coz.. we were being instructed by SAM to do those different actions. its was quite fun though was a bit embarassing ya.. hahaz... lastly were the india cadets.. their presentation was one of the best. one female cadet went out with their traditional dress and a pot of fire on her head, dancing around.. it was very interesting and everyone applauded loudly. after the dance, they presented their cultural dance. quite interesting ya.

after the camp pin nite, everyone haf their supper and head back to their bunk. every morning, when the cadets went to visit different parts of singapore or some events, i got to go school. so miss out quite some time with them. thursday night was 48th intake CLT passing out ceremony. foreign cadets are cordially invited to witness the ceremony. they gave 10/10 for the CLT passing out ceremony. after the ceremony, everyone head back to their bunk as they were tired.

Friday nite was a farewell dinner for all the foreign cadets as they will be leaving on either saturday or sunday. the dinner was a nice one. i was like a pig, eat and eat and eat.. but i haven finish njoying certain fd, the waiter/waitress take away the food liao.. cock sia.. anyway, i'm fat, beta don eat much.. hahaz.. once again, individual country went up to the small stage to give a talk.. first is australia. every sing the australia song with great joy.. (I still call Australia.. I still call Australia.. I still call Australia.. HOME.........) was a very nice song too.. following up is the us cadet. they onli gave a speech . same for UK too.. then its hong kong turn. they did some lame shit. at first, ppl don catch wat they are doing.. but after tt, ppl begin to catch wat they are doing.. some lame kung fu stuff.. then is the INDIA CADETS turn.. they took 20 minutes on the presentation. they say out all their country different aspect. religion,tourism,army,economy,ncc,places of interest and MORE!!! wooooow... so damn powerful!!!!

Then.. its saturday.. the first country to depart is Hong KOng.. we send them to the airport. we took photos and bid farewell to each other.. then the nxt country to be send off will be at nite. the UK and US cadet will be catching their nite plane.. mean time, they went to shop. time flies ya, its almost time to go to the airport. for this few days, SAM from UK, was the closest to us. on out way to airport, we sang lots of songs together in the bus. everyone was feeling very sad as we are going to dart from each other in no time. however, we control our emotion and carry to sing as we go. the atmosphere in the bus was saturated with joy and laughter.

We reach the airport in no time and we unloaded the luggage for them. as i push the trolley in, i was feeling down. kept trying to control mi precious tears from rolling down my cheeks. i think of the things that i hate most in order to counter my emotions. every thing was fine. when SAM hugged me, i cant take it anymore and broke down.. OMG.. tt was so pai sae lo.. but i donno y, i juz wanna cry when i say bb to him... i was like a leader over there.. leader as in lead everyone to cry.. LOL.. after i cry, all begin to shed tears too. my influence tt big??? lolx.. everyone's eyes was red and swollen.. feeling very very sad at tt point of time. as we see them in to the check in counter, tears begin to roll down again.. haiz.. so sad.. but nvm, still in contact after all.. minutes after sam went in, the us cadets went in to.. then we left the airport...

then nxt day, sunday, australia and india will be leaving. we went to sent the australia to the airport... india cadets was so bad, rather stay in bus then to send the australia cadets off. we took group foto and send went to a cafeteria to haf coffee with them b4 they check in. moments lata, its time for them to check in and we bid farewell to them.. no one shed tears except for a friend of mine, kevin. hahaz...

after sending the australian cadets off, we went back to the coach. we send the india cadets to haf their breakfast at the macdonalds. they took their own sweet time to eat but its ok la... as usual, take a group foto b4 they bought up the bus... we send them straight to the airport and see them off.. we take foto with them again and see them in to the check in counter.. after they gone in, everyone was so... HAPPY!!!! mission accomplished yea... can go home and haf a gd rest liao.. hahaz.. anyway, ICEP is really a great great programme ya!!! hope to be invloved in it again in year 2005 which is nxt ear.. hahaz.. =D

First dayof the second semester(06/12/2004)...

2004-12-07T10:13:00.000+08:00

zzz.. so damn tired lo.. last few days either i nv slp or slp at 2 plus in the morning and wake up at 0800hrs.. today first day of schl.. wanna catch more slp, so slp till 0730hrs and take a cab to np to catch the 0800hrs class.. sian la.. waste mi money...

reach schl, get into the lecture hall for some briefing... the briefing took about one hour or so.. mi eyes almost shut but nv.. i try to keep miself awake untill the very last 10 min, mi mind completely shut down.. and i went to lala land..

after waking up, i went to one side of the lecture hall to choose wat sport i wanna take as i got a module call IS-S&W.. got a chocie of 22 sports to choose from.. but tt sport muz haf a minimum of 10 ppl inorder to start.. long before i had wanted to take up life savers.. however, no 1 is interested in it.. i'm the onli one whu wants to take up life guard.. zzz.. all ppl either go take up basketball,soccer,badminton of hip hop wateva.. those sports tt got relation with the swimming pool, like canoe polo, life saver and swimming, onli attract a few ppl.. majority of them agreed in taking up canoe polo.. since i'm the only one whu is interested in life saver, i got no say but to agree lo.... now we onli got 8 ppl.. then stanley went to ask more ppl to join us.. 4 girls came over to join us... but they join us becoz they got no choice as they were being rejected by the sport or the intake for the sport tt they want, are full... but at the end of the day, there are 12 ppl and so canoe polo is on...

finish enrolling.. i went to haf mi breakfast and went to mi nxt lesson.. ORAL COMMUNICATON.. so sian wan la.. muz go to the front and tok to every one.. and also stand in front of the class and give ur comments and thoughts about certain issue... wa piang.. realli damn pai sae ean lo... although is juz onli a one and a half minute to two minute talk, the feeling is still very sucky.. sian... then due to those camp the days b4, so damn bloody sleepy lo... the teacher over there talkin, i over keep dozing off.. she talk joke, i over there keep dosing off, tryin to keep miself away.. sian sia.. guess i beta rest early worx...

after schl, so lonely.. walk to the bus stop and take bus.. juz wanted to take a short nap and i took over stop... i alighted from bus 74 at ACS(i).. thenw aited for bus no. 14.. when the bus come, i slp again.. once again, i took over stop.. zzz.. alighted at rivervalley rd... sian sia.. then i walk all the way back to tiong as i don haf concession pass.. reach tiong onli, one ger approach mi, ask mi to buy from her the charity coupon.. wa piang.. not say i stingy.. but i realli spent alot of money liao lo.. but control liao le.. then i bought one from her.. one for 5 bucks.. i no change so i handed her a piece of 10 bucks.. she claims tt she had no change and insisted mi on buying another piece from her.. *pengZ*.. then her friend come, came to carry mi balls.. say i very yan dao, pls buy two... wtF man.. i rejected her and she give me my change back..

reach home, nuttin to do.. then slack.. sian.. waiting for the nxt day to come.. rdy to see mi new classmate.. wonder how they look like.. most or can i say all are ppl with distinction grade de.. do they look like bookworm/chiongster/nerds??? i donno.. lets find out tml... hopefully everything goes well and i wont dose off in class tml... ^_^

NCC ICEP(International Cadet Exchange Program)

2004-12-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

wow.. went to assist 2WO mathi to look after the foreign cadets.. starting find all of them alright. very polite and friendly.. after settling down, when bring the whole ICEP cadets out for shopping.. india cadets start to reveal their true self.. wtH...

every clt tt haf taken india cadets b4, all complain about them.. they are so stingy lo.. everything oso convert back to rupee.. see india cheaper or singapore cheaper.. after converting, then BARGAIN... lolx.. they are well known for their bargaining power.. haix... ppl offer s$250 for a electronic dictoinary or wateva electronics stuff(i forgot wat it is), they want to haf it for s$120... the shop owner offer another price of S$150, they still bargain for S$120.. finally, the shop owner gave in and offer them their desired price.. when they heard the shop owner finally offering them their desired price, they ask for S$100.. wat the hell man.. y skin so thicK??? in the end, the shop owner ask him go back india to purchase(well saiD!!!).. this is onli the shopping part... india cadets also like to take pictures wherever they go.. so powerful.. i really wonder if they bring a luggage full of films inside.. because they use up 3-4 rolls of film each day.. not one india cadet but ALL.. total of 10 india cadets with inclusive of teacher officer.. eat also take pic.. on the street oso take.. see ppl motorbike, juz climb on it to take picture.. first time he lucky, got off with it.. the second time at beach rd, he climb onto the bike again.. this time, he set off the bike alarm.. lucki he move away fast or he might get screwed by the bike owner.. lolx..

as for the cadets from european country.. they are like so daring... went to orchard for a shop.. i and wei zheng are in charge of them at tt day.. they walked into takashimaya and went passed a shop tt sell massaging device like massaging chair and etc.. on seeing it, the female america cadet, josie, went in and sat down on the chair.. the nxt thing she do, is ask the shop assistant to help her set the mode.. *penGz*.. i and wei zheng got to sit there and wait for them.. so pai seh lo.. nv buy still go in and sit.. its not one person but 3 person.. one after another.. sit till so shiok.. then still pull u and wei zheng in.. they keep insisting tt we muz try.. *diaoz*.. after sitting, i went to apologize to the shop assistant.. wtH sia... but its ok la, they are all nice ppl after all.. =)

after the massaging chair, we went out and walk to heerens.. inside the heerens, one male cadet from UK,whose name is sam, went to disturb josie.. she pinched his nipples and he shouted OUCH!!! so loudly tt ppl coming down from the escalator, keep staring at us.. very wat sia.. anyway, sam was a joker.. he kind of entertain us and also teach us the "y don u fuck off" hand sign and many more.. first time seeing and knowing this kind of hand sign, find it rather interesting and funny.. hahaz...

as for the hong kong cadets, i don realli know them well.. but after they learn the "y don u fuck off" hand sign, one of them keep showing tt to me when he sees mi.. *diaoz*.. but he don meant business, but juz for fun.. another guy still show mi his diary.. when he open up his diary, i saw two condom.. lolx.. will he need it in NCC HQ??? lolx...

anyway, knowing all this foreign cadets and accompanying them for juz this few days, i find tt it is quite fun and also interesting to mingle with them.. its a nice experience ya.. when going off on sunday night because got to attend schl on monday, i was kinda unwilling.. hope to stay with them thru out till they go back to their country.. but cant.. u no y?? coz tt NGEE ANN POLY, unlike SINGAPORE POLY, start schl on 6 of dec and not 13 of DEC.. spoil fun but anyway, study is more impt.. and i still can see them ard on the 10-12 of dec.. to see them off to the airport.. so everything is alright.. =)

siAnsation(haiZ)

2004-11-28T13:19:00.000+08:00

wa.. today is a sian day lo.. come home after painting schl wall, then nuttin to do.. stay at home zhou bo.. kena captain low disease i think.. switch on mi laptop.. sign into msn.. look into the screen, very little ppl online.. no mood for games.. keep loosin though.. zzz.. wat a boring day... sitting down thinkin of mani things...

was feeling quite lonely oso.. but wat to do.. being lonely is part of mi life.. no siblings.... alone... was thinkin of gettin a partner lo.. but how? the question is how lo.. always living in the days of being a hum ji(no balls)... don dare to approach to tt person la.. and bla bla..

when come to this issue, always finding excuses for miself.. how s2pid can i be worx... always running or avoiding from this kinda thing.. sian.. whu can help me other than miself? haiz.. hopes one day i will change... then perhaps i might get miself a partner and not so lonely anymore...

newbie lo

2004-11-26T17:26:00.000+08:00

first time using blogspot worx.. don realli know how it works.. donno wat to post oso, so juz anyhow type lorh... damn sian anyway, so i created this blogspot.. zzz... those xperience ppl, PLS.. guide mi thru... teach mi how to use this chim chim thing.. lolx... -.-z