Saturday, September 26, 2009
Oh well.. feeling so random.. feel like blogging suddenly.
Friends, family, relationship.. Everything is FIRST in your heart. But according to you, relationship is First in first place, family is Second in first place, friends is Third in first place. Somehow, i feel that friend is first in first place.. But at times, you made me feel that i am First in first place.
Today, i feel that the friend had really become first in first place. I would throw aside everything, just to see u and accompany u. If its for you, even if its last minute thing and i have to attend some events or outing with friend, i will push them aside. Because you are the First in my heart.
I am busy lately.. Suddenly got a pact schedule. Work, Love, Family.. I tried my best to think of way to arrange things and de-conflict things.. but its getting no where.. I know i haven't been spending enough time with you this few weeks.. I would really like to spend nice time with you too.. But tml i really got to go in.. Because of how my grandma treat my mom when she is down and how long i have not seen her.. Frankly speaking, I don like to go in either.. so far away................ and its like finally got a weekend after the 5 days work week, can spend time with u already, I got family commitment on.. My parents couldn't give me any confirmation till last minute.. In the end, when i ask them, HOW?, they told me that they are waiting for my response since few days ago.. -_-"
The best way that we can be together this weekend will be you following me to visit my grandma.. but you had already made a pact with your friends a week ago, that you will be attending the gathering. I know that they should be given priority, but to me, i felt that friends can always meet up together.. last week, you say your friend just book out from the army, so you want to see them.. it might be your last meet up with them and wont be seeing them anymore.. Despite how sick you are, you still try to meet up with them. Tomorrow gathering, consists of army friends again.. I know you don like to pang seh your friends.. But visiting of grandma, is once a few months or years thing. and its the best way we can be together through out the weekend.. I feel that friends gathering can be push aside as there will sure be outings being organised again.. hmmmm...
Perhaps............ I am selfish this time.. but i feel that i should be given priority.. I KNOW and i feel that i am at fault too.. shouldn't just pop you this question suddenly and kind of "insist" you to pang seh your friends.. Sorry.. But i feel kind of stress.. sorry for this awful planning.. Work.. Love.. family.. sigh..
You hate my job to the core, but i kinda like it.. i like my uniform.. i like my primary job.. i like the working environment but i hate the working hours and secondary job. Detachment is a new experience for me.. see how operations work and etc.. Its my job.. Management choose me, I go.. I never volunteer for any. The biggest thing i hate about my job, is this thing:"CHANGES". This dynamic workforce always have changes.. and it often make people more of unhappy than happy.. Hate it? also must serve for the next few years till my minimum term is full filled.
Sigh.. This entry is purely my thought.. it has got nothing against you. Sorry if u feel insulted or hurt.. My intention for blogging is because i feel that i have no one to talk to.. so... ya......
Smile even if you're sad.. :)
Never give up...
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Good Morning everyone.. it has been 2yrs and 5 months since i last logged in. had always wanted to log in and blog about my life and etc, but got carried away by laziness. LAZY is a very dangerous word and action. BEWARE ok. lol..
Just a warm up entry.. will try to cultivate the habit to blog.. i tink it is good to blog too.. lol.. shout out and say all the kuku things tt trap in my heart.
Never give up...
Sunday, March 04, 2007
has been rotting everyday.. every single day.. gt tt kind of "whole life wasted" feeling.. but good in some way cux getting paid while rotting (only for these few months).
nowadays.. like gt soo many things to say.. but when logged in to blogger, suddenly my mind become empty.. nth to write about.. zzz..
everything is going well.. going smoothly.. then suddenly, over one issue, it caused disruption.. wat is happening? i donno.. i seriously donno.. certain unhappy things tt u say when ur angry, can be easily 4gotten or wont take it to heart.. but certain things u said, it makes me think alot.. sian..
tt's all.. for today..
Never give up...
Sunday, February 18, 2007
woooo.. after donno howwwwww long.. FINALLY updated!!! l0lx.. waaa.. so many things happen over this feww months.. it will take one whole day to list them alllll.. l0lx.. anw, happy new yrrr to alll.. will try to keep this blog updated.. ahha
after 3 yrs, graduated from poly alr.. I"M A FREE MAN!! (1 month only.. -.-") l0lx.. i going to wear blue sooon.. so fast la.. sian.. ok.. i donno wat crap to say ler.. coz too many to say, in the end, become donno wat to say.. l0lx.. tata.. will try to updateeeee!!!
P.S. YOU ROCKS!!! :D
Never give up...
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Wooo.. updates for sat and sunday.. went to apply for Powered pleasure craft driving license (PPCDL).. the whole saturday was lecture, lecture and lecture.. learn about the different symbols, lights, sound that existed in the sea.. very confusing laaa.. so many things to memorise and learn.. omg la.. no wonder the captain say passing rate for theory is 30% only while practical test is 50% only.. holy cow.. 30 question can only have 4 mistakes.. after that its considered fail.. each attempt 21 bucks.. knn.. car thoery test cheaper and waiting time shorter.. then practical test is 52.50 bucks.. anw, the practical is abit same like car whereby accumulating of 20 points and more == faill.. come to think of it, PPCDL really nt easy to get.. practical timing so short, then the test criteria quite strict.. hmmm
after sat lecture, I went to watch STEP UP with addie, lex and nis @ westmall.. the movie damn cool la.. the dance step really very CHIO!! ahha.. listen to the music and see the way he dance, really make u wanna move ur body too.. woohooo... don mind watching it again though.. hahah.. i think the male lead dance more cool than the female dance lead!! hohoho!!
Anw, so much for saturday theory, today was practical session!!! step into the boat and there are many safety checks to be done.. quite alot to say though.. see everyone saying the same old thing makes me wanna slp.. finally its time to go out to sea!!! woooo!! cant wait for it la.. out at the sea, each of us get to drive.. CHIN CHONG use the boat to drift la.. kao.. all our hearts almost jump out.. sudden turn @ high speed.. stun man.. speeding with the power boat really shiok.. hohoho.. after that went to do the 'Man overboard drill'.. quite hard to do lo.. backman throw out the life buoy(act as human), then must go one round and retrieve it.. going around is easy.. but the retrieving part is gay.. once the boat hull knock the life buoy with a "TAK" sound, immediate failure.. then must really use judgement and stop by the side of the buoy before picking it up.. damn cheem..
after break, went back to the boat again.. this time is parkin and leaving the berth.. hmm.. initially, was quite hard to park.. all of us can barely make a perfect one.. everyone gets to do 4-5 times.. that MENG does the most la!!! i see the rest do until i fell asleep.. l0l.. went for our dinner after that, was qutie late alr.. 5.30 liao!!! went to eat @ the restaurant.. quite X.. eat fried rice and OR NI!!! at the restaurant, one aunty(think is manager), came to our table and tok to us.. she say we all qutie big size, gt go gym for trainin wan is it.. after that, she suddenly point at dennis and say:"this guy nv train one rite.. so big size.. show me ur six packs"!.. HAHAHAH!!! damn funny la.. the aunty's comment.. hohoho.. dennis must be damn gek sim even though he claims that he is ok with tt JOKE of hers.. haha.. but the aunty later treat us to a jug of plain water.. was supposed to pay for it, but it is FREE!!!
after that went back to boating again.. was about 7 clock alr.. the sky was getting dark.. after dinner, everyone went to do parking again.. surprisingly, everyone was able to do it nicely la.. the captain was like so stunt.. say after dinner, all recharged.. able to do properly.. haha.. then he allowed us to drive the boat out to the sea again.. this time with the sky dark.. sitting at the front part of the powerboat is the best of the best.. the feeling really damn nice.. the breeze blowing against ur face with the dark ambience around and the lightings of the busy port of m'sia opposite.. very very relaxing la.. (:
shook the captain's hand b4 we left, and he advice us to EAT BEFORE TEST.. lol.. lame.. get to know some interesting experience about sailing.. quite cool.. anw, went back w/o bathing cuz donno where is the bath room and no time.. coz gonna miss the shuttle bus.. at outram mrt, saw this couple, the guy really make me luff like siao.. his face gt so many different expression.. and all expression looks like a fucking retard! LOL!! act cute and bla bla bla.. lex, nis, js and me cant stop luffing.. lol.. before this, i saw two banglas standing beside a wall.. they like posting for some magazines.. stand in the same style, one behind another.. looks quite funny.. should have taken pics of them.. LOL!!
papa call me and wanna fetch me to visit grandmama.. and to fetch my mama from my aunt's house.. but my mama left alr, wat a wasted trip, so we went back home.. few minutes later, my mama call my papa and my papa went to another aunt's house to fetch my mama.. lol.. when i reach home, i smell some POISONOUS GAS!!! then i decided to find out where the smell come from.. walk into study room, no have.. my room, no have.. kitchen, no have.. master bed room, quite strong.. walk into the toilet, HOLY SHIT!!! my papa "PANG SAI BO TUA CHUI"!!! LOL!! he wanna kill me with that poisonous gas.!! i don wanna flush it away since he always don admit that he 4get or din flush the toilet.. this is the evidence.. this time he cant deny!!
after 30 min, i BTH, i went to switch on the fans, but with the evidence untouched.. lol.. finally, he is back with my mama.. even my mama could smell it in the living room.. **see how poisonous the gas is".. i invited the two of them into the toilet to see the evidence.. my mama refused to enter the toilet.. i gt to pull her in, but she faster run away.. HAHAHAH!!! my papa walk in and flush the evidence away.. then still don wanna admit defeat.. haha.. dumb mann
tt's all!!!!! logged off (:
sometimes there are things that cant be say out.. its nt that easy as there will be consequences after saying it.. hmmm
Never give up...
Friday, November 17, 2006
FOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo!!! today no need to go office.. BEST! sleep till i song, then went to school.. brought training gear but end up nv train at all.. wasted.. if no rain, sure go and run de.. but it rain big time.. sadded.. finally the stepper switch is one step closer to finale.. so happy la.. just show captain tan and see wat will he says..
meet up with lex and decided to have dinner.. actually wanted to go home after that, but dennis called and ask if wanna catch movie.. after that, begin to jio ppl.. actually wanted to watch step up, but in the end, watch casino royale 007 instead.. coz many ppl cant make it in time.. too rush le..
On the bus journey to westmall, something dumb happen.. was trying to read a sms when my mama call me hp.. she cant stop nagging.. nag and nag and nag.. then lex was beside me.. i wanted to increase the volume of the sound so that lex can hear how naggy my mama is.. then i begin to shift the joystick of my phone when the phone is still intact with my ears.. shift and shift, after awhile, the volume nv increase.. then i begin to hear some thing.. i tot is some one interfering, y keep gt the xtra sound and same tone somemore.. i listen clearly and guess wat i hear.. its "FUCK YOU" in a low tone.. wtf man.. i faster see my phone, then i realise i press into the outbox and accidentally played the bluetooth recording that was being stored in my phone since last year.. it keeps repeating and repeating.. the clip was a blue tooth recording that ZK(my cousin) recorded 1 yr ago.. so wtf la.. then my mama ask me what is it.. y gt the fuck u fuck u sound de.. she nv say fuck u, but she say 8, 9, 8, 9 in chinese that goes like 'ba jiu ba jiu".. then my papa beside say its fuck you is it.. wat crap la.. she tot i scolding her cuz she nagging at me.. then i gt to explain to her.. over and over again.. say i'm a filial son and wont do such things and bla bla bla.. cant stop laughing after that.. so funny can.. imagine u are tokin to some one, then suddenly gt fuck you fuck you in a super slow and low tone.. LOL!!
went to watch casino royale 007.. quite a draggy show.. gt some parts keep talkin de.. some actions are nice.. but the whacking of the balls is damn funny la.. HAHA!!.. some scenes are damn hot la!! the last part was quite obscene.. can see that the james bond anyhow do cpr de.. purposely wanna eat the girl tofu by anyhow press.. then later at a close up scene when james bond wanna feel for pulses at her neck, omg la.. the female actress nips erected.. it was actually flat, but after the CPR, something pertruded out.. LOL!!! ok.. its really obscene.. i'm not sick ok.. many ppl realise tt.. =X
went back home after the show.. papa call me and decided to give me a lift from tiong bahru plaza.. at the traffic junction can see police in action.. something like roadblock.. but actually was an accident.. then my papa wanna KPO, he make a U-turn, park the taxi and went down to see.. think is a long vehicle bus collided with a bicycle.. but like no casualties.. nth much, went home after that..
today was quite a great day!!! logged off!!! =D
Never give up...
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Today was a great day!! finally not rotting in office and gt work to do.. the feeling is like.. wa.. so good.. lol.. manage to finish scenario 1 today.. GOOD!. tml will be half day off.. then decided to go to school for the whole day instead of going back to office in the afternoon..
went for training.. only saw a few sprinters came down for training.. went for campus run.. quite satisfy with my pace.. hmm.. perspire like no body business and squeeze out all the sweat from my singlet at the water cooler.. and many ppl goes "EEyer"!!, "WTF"!!, "WA PAING"!!, "OMG"!! and more.. lol.. but i demonstrate that it is safe by being the first to drink the water.. LOL!!
reach home and the desperate dota player, mr HONG HUA JIE came and talk to me.. i haven bath, i haven eat.. he wanna play dota.. i turn him down and he nt happy.. still say can show him canoeist spirit anot.. we go kallang tgt then i show u.. show u online for fark.. chey.. then say no moral and some shitty stuff.. anyway, i don really care... after tt, he put "du lan with np canoeist" as his msn nick.. wat fark man.. no link.. then block me.. after tt unblock me and paste me part of the conversation of him and Mr. X(i donno who is he talkin to, so i say is MR X).. say train so much no balls.. wat ever.. game is game.. u wanna qie and see if wat i train gt use anot, i'm willing to qie u.. play game pro does not mean u can xia lan.. u wanna xia lan, can go and fark the wall..
surf the net and visit henderson ncc webbie.. coz mr wardi ask me to check it out and to see need any changes not.. then happen to come across the photo archive.. damn cool la.. happen to find some old pictures.. haha.. very very memorable..
Guard of Honour Contingent 2004
this pictures let me think back lo.. my first parade as a CLT and first time holding a sword, being a contingent 2IC.. haha.. follow the SAF training style.. guard of honour must wear long 4 with peak cap for rehearsal.. still remember francis, JD and me screw the cadets during training.. those were the days.. haha..
sword salute
sword salute.. to the AH GUA LIM!! LOL!!
wooo.. marching pass the saluting dice.. coool
haha.. but after browsing thru all those pics.. i think that the most memorable wan is this picture below.. coz the above picture is taken during poly yr 1.. become clt liao.. the below picture still sec 3 la.. wearing the old number 1 uniform.. its the before puberty LLC.. lol.. still have no hair at that time.. coz doctor say i gt delay puberty.. LOL!!
(Left to right)
Hoong teck, Richard, LC
look at the peak cap.. so big.. like some turban.. lol.. found another photo, then i look closely.. omg.. is me la.. camouflage in grass.. ahha.. the sucking experience that i will never forget.. lol..
third short man from the right, standing with cross feet
that green little dude.. is ME!!! LOL!!
hmmm.. looking at this pic really let me think back lors.. when i was still a cadet in HSS.. really brings back fond memories.. =)
And last pic of all.. .. ..
Henderson NCC, Year 2000.
(with courtesy from JD's blog)
Thanx HSSNCC for the fond memories and everything.. =)
Never give up...
