& put your footprints on // 4:13 PM &

i felt like a lost sheep.. .. .. .. ..

Never give up...


& put your footprints on // 11:36 PM &

weeeeeeee.... updates again... went to watch movie just now. me, andrew, dennis and hs. actually wanted to watch lake house. but hs say four guys watch romance show, abit gay.. lol.. then watch dragon tiger gate instead. quite a nice show though.. ha.. all characters so cool lor.. one of the main actor, dennis call him JING MU DAN.. lol.. wat is that man.. haha.. dumbo. the fighting is cool la.. but the way he run, like gay.. lol..

my back is irritating me lor. cant run or jump too much. but i play bball ytd. like a noob f**k.. ha.. after each short game, the back will give me trouble. trying to throw ball in certain way, but all miss.. kao.. so difficult... learning from scratch is nt easy at all.. hmmm.. but i will practise more.. at least i shoot 5 balls in.. dennis only shoot 1 in.. ahha..

went to kallang on wednesday to row boat with alfred. gt bite by an red ant w/o knowing it. then now so itchy.. giving me hell.. has been 1 yr plus since i last gt bitten. dear ants, pls don make me carry out evil deeds by killing u. lol.. (apply to red ants only.)

oh ya.. today andrew suggested to go canteen 3 to eat. coz got some HEALTHY CAMPAIGN going on. went to western stall and order chicken chop rice.. john was in front of me. after we bought our food, we went back to the table and seat down.. then he saw something swimming in his gravy.. he scoop it out and HOLY SHIT it was a HOUSE FLY!!! LOL!! swimming in gravy summore. i see liao very disgusted, use hs bowl of soup to cover the fly. then john push the bowl forward.. i see the fly's leg outside of the bowl.. then being drag infront.. see liao really sian diao.. but at least the fly die with its body soaked in "delicious" gravy.. RIP... lol







hmmm.. will keep trying till the very end. dear lord, pls bless me with more courage. =)

Never give up...


& put your footprints on // 12:26 AM &

oh welll.. the national comps is over. though nv manage to win or go into the finals, but we leech quite alot of experience. many thanx to my dear partner, bernard. we have completed both races together and eat the backwash of other ppl boats together. was a good race after all. ha.. lets come back as alumni and try again next yr.. =x

well.. life is back to normal again. wonder if i should participate in the round ubin marathon. the marathon will be on 20 of aug and the nxt day is my exam. sians.. go or don go. i nt sure.

the second prize for RD is so amazing. i was shock when i see it.. lol.. the first thought that came to my mind is tt, the person will be so happy to play with it, but after pumping it for so damn long, he would rather threw it aside and not play it.. u know y? cox sian of pumping air into it.. lol.. stood outside the gym and pump the boat for 30 min. it was only 3/4 full with air.. diaox.. luckily the shape is there, if not i will faint. ahha

i've been thinkin all day long. think and think. every single day. how to approach, how to act. really depends on myself to take the nxt step. but i find it so difficult. sian. like tt carry on, good game liao.. =(











I'll keep trying.

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& put your footprints on // 9:13 PM &

well.. today is the first day of national canoeing championship(ncc). can say is my last sprinting competition le ba.. coz this year i year 3 liao, gonna graduate. see many different types of people, the way they race, and different categories of competition. really very cool. see people from hong kong with incredible fast reps, endurance and speed. see people race with C boats. see skinny and white competitor but turn out to be the first and super fast.

my race was scheduled at 1240pm. but due the very efficient organiser, my race was being brought forward 20 min. i'm nt as nervous as compared to MR500 race. i just feel so normal. just like normal training, no feeling at all. row the K2 boat to the start line, encouraging my partner and talk bout some race strategy. lol.. and there were another 3 boat competing in my event. one from X-national team, one from national team and one from NJC alumni.

the horn sound off and the race begun. after i finish my first 6 hard strokes, the other competitor already 1 boat length ahead. sian. but carry on rowing. the direction was being change due to the backwash of other boat or current of the water. but bernard manage to get it back on track. at about 500m point, almost capsized, but we braised it up. by then other people already lead us 300m. nv give up and continue to row. i row with my head down and i SUPPOSED there is still coordination. row finish and gt the last position. was glad tt we complete and never capsized. thank god.

was actually quite sian after the race, but after awhile ok liao. today the polo girls came down to watch the race. SHE came too.. i was surprised. i really really really wanted to talk to her. but i don dare to. haiz. i can only sit aside and look at her lor. today is a really good chance to approach, but i missed it.. sigh.. my mind wanted to go up to her, but my body just wont move. y i no courage and guts de.. sian.. wat a loser lor.. haiz.. like tt double sian le.. first is race, second is my own stupid problem. she was there for so long lor. i wasted my chance. haiz...

stay back and watch the race as dennis, jeremy, collin, brian, samuel race is at around 4+. went to join bernard they all in rowing the K1. at least better than sitting there, feel like approaching, but body so reluctant to move.. kao.. loser me.

those hong kong ppl i really gotta salute them. real pros. after everyone race finish, clean up the place, change and went to town to eat. walk aorund far east, looking for chicken rice to eat. after walking 3 rounds, we decided to eat burger king instead. damn full la. at BK, jun sheng show me the video that they recorded for my race.. i see liao i immediately sian diao. i never know tt my cooridination was so out and wrong.. sian.. my fault le.. train so long liao, still like tt.. really a laughing stock. ppl must be thinking, this kind of ppl still dare to join competition. sian.. but thanx to the video camera, at least after so many training, i know how cock up i am. always assuming tt we are synchronize, but in actual fact, we are not. my bad. as the bad man should follow and coordinate with front man.. sigh..

tml i got one more event. 500m race. i really hope can perform well and put in my best shots. i wanna row and complete the race with no regrets le.. after each race, i wanna tap my partner shoulder, telling him good job, and not regretting by keep saying this can be improve, tt can be improve and etc. anyway, tml got very strong competitors and i realy hope to at least achieve a 5th position tml and not last. god bless. see the video liao, sian again. then think bout this afternoon thing, sian again.. wa.. afternoon suffer from double sian.. night time oso suffer from double sian.. crap la me..

tt's all i think. maybe some people can teach me or train me to nt be a loser. tml then continue to update lors.. anyway, lets all hope tt everyone can perform tml and row with no regrets!!! NGEE ANN KAYAKING TEAM KI AHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~!!!!!!!

Never give up...


& put your footprints on // 2:31 AM &

hmmm.. 11 more days to competition. the national canoeing championship.. every sprinters who are taking part, must jia yoU ok!!! will just row and complete the race with no regrets!! last competition for me liao.. don wanna regret at all.. so i must do my very best!!! to my partner, i gt sumthing to tell u...............
BERNARD LIM CHANG KANG YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA =)

anyway, today was chionging the presentation for the dumb wisp.. then suddenly msn gt a message.. i see, i stunt.. power sia.. has been 4 yrs since we last chat lors.. wa.. gt tt kind of feeling like i have just found a long lost friend.. though the conversation was short, but i kind of enjoy it though. always don dare to tok to u.. gt no other meaning though, but i feeling kinda happy after tt.. haha.. wierd.. =)

tt's all lors.. i think i dying soon.. coz i everyday slp at 2am.. i must change or i'll really die soon.. siansssss... tata

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& put your footprints on // 1:25 AM &

hmm.. has been quite some time i blog.. series of events happen.. sad to happy.. all have.. lets start from spec course then.. well.. went to spec course and found out tt i was appointed 2IC.. holy shit as i've nv taken such a big post b4.. but nxt day, kena arrow by 2WO mathi and i became OIC.. thanx to guo jun, the camp advisor aka lao jiao who guided me and help me though.. had fun and also experience new things. had a sense of achievement though coz i normally don wanna take up this post coz always feel unprepared. anyway, spec course ended and tt was my last camp. receive a nice card with nice drawing by syahir, eileen, shu qing and wenting. (hope i left no one out).. many thanx.. really much appreciated.. =)

now, nxt is training.. sometimes i really think i shouldn't give my partner so much pressure. am i in the wrong? i think i am. its just a CCA though.. everyone should love the trainings and enjoy them and not feel sad or moody at the end of the day. maybe i gonna row the boat with my partner in a normal way. no more pressure, no more scolding and etc. ur happy, i'm happy too.. winning has become less important to me.. the feelings of ppl around me is more important.. if tt person always say he want to win without putting in much effort, then he/she seriously need some reality check. i can see the effort that u put in, i can see that u had given ur best shot.. i can ask for nothing much but to ask u to pull through this race with much more endurance. let's encourage one another and train hard.. such that at the end of the day, we can tell ourself that we have no regrets as we have done our best. i don want u to feel sian after sunday training.. neither do i.. we will just row the boat like how we used to row T2 last time.. i think tt's the best.. so stay cool and happy.. =)

so much for training stuff, went out for kel's bdae the night before official sunday training.. had a gethering with ncc mates. had been a long time since we last gather. everyone njoy ourself though.. as usual, francis and jd brought laughter to us all.. sumtimes i really wonder how long can the friendship between me, francis and jd last. this yr marks the 7 yr of our friendship.. i really enjoy being with them, attending camp with them and going out with them. when we become adult and work, will this friendship still last? i really hope tt it will. anyway, went to SP after tt for some "night driving" session.. jd's XL185 is damn cool to ride on.. second time riding bike.. cool and fun!!! haha.. tried on both auto and manual car.. both are cool too.. ha.. anyway, we went home after tt..

kel's bdae was on sunday, but canoeist celebrated with him ONCE AGAIN on monday.. HAAHA!! i poured ice cube into his dick while he was being pinned down!!! next is hte dumping of HIM into the dustbin.. the ice are still inside his pants.. haah.. i bet his dick must have shrink!!! hohoho!!! now comes the season finale.. everyone kick the dustbin and he fell to the ground!! cool!! haha.. he ran out like some madass and faster let out the ice tt shrink his dick!! HAHAHAHAHAHAAH!!! fun fun fun!! hehe

anyway, francis, i've read ur blog.. u used to be very passionate towards ur course, but now u seems to hate it.. always saying tt it sucks.. well nothing is easy la.. esp when yr 3 liao.. no one is nt stresful.. so look on the bright side lor.. wanna run in schl, can jio me oso.. haha.. nt necessary must jio charles and kel only.. =x
so tt's all for today.. shall update again!! stay tuned!!! =D

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