Friday, March 24, 2006
wooohooooo!!!! so happy.. finally got wat i am aiming for since last semester.. really a surprise man.. i seriously believe this sentence "the more u think of it, the more u will not achieve.. if the less or u nv think of it, u will achieve it.." just like a surprise..
i woke up at 0810 and manage to force myself back to slp.. i woke up again at 0835.. since results will only be out at 0900.. i only want myself to check my result at tt time.. i set my phone to silent mode as i don wan to get disturbed.. ha.. then i close my eyes again.. after awhile, i open my eyes.. it only pass 5 min.. and the time is 0840... wa.. i so nervous and anxious lor.. then my feet start to feel very cold.. must use blanket to cover.. keep tryin to force myself back to slp, but always open my eyes 5min later.. time seem to pass so slow.. then when its 0858.. the time also pass so slow.. normally when we do bridge during training.. this 2 min pass very fast de.. anyway, its finally its 9am.. went to login and check my result.. cover my eyes with one hand and see my result.. its a surprise!! :D
good luck to all!!!! :D
wa.. today won my second gold medal for regatta.. so far tt's wat i got in my poly life.. but this gold medal also nt canoeing de.. if is canoeing get de, confirm very honoured.. but its not.. anyway, we won the committee team today.. lex was so bias.. bias bias and bias.. make his team with strong ppl.. then the rest just put in team 2.. but team 2 won!! yay!! won team 1(lex team) by 40 micro seconds.. lol.. fierce fight.. we won both first and second for the regatta race.. but overall its good la.. the team won something.. but just to say, even if ur opponent are very strong ppl, u got to have the confidence in urself.. if u have the confidence, u already won 60% of the race.. cheering makes up another 10% too.. haha..
good job nacc.. everyone done well.. :D
Never give up...
Saturday, March 18, 2006
hmmm.. today was a great day.. was my 2nd sprinting competition, MR 500.. which was being held at seletar reservoir.. and today is also the first time i witness dragon boat race.. kinda interesting.. today team ngee ann did their best and everyone row with no regrets.. for those first time participating in sprinting competition, take this as a good experience for the future..
got there at 0915am and waited 6hrs for my race.. but in between, get to see my team mates competing.. shouted to the top of my voices and cheer out loud for them.. cheering is very impt as it really boost the morale of the person who is racing.. so lucky to see my francis doing the filming at the ending point.. luckily he was there, can talk cock with him.. haha.. then after tt saw syahir.. think he was with his gf but he din want to let me know.. hohoho.. anyway, althouhg clemence, alfred and jia ying got 3rd and 2nd position, but they are not qualified.. kind of sad.. but once again, winning is not everything..
got 4th for my race.. i felt tt i have given my best, but actually i lack of endurance.. spectator's comment is the best feedback ever.. i'm sorry partner(bernard) if we got 4th because of my lag of endurance.. but at least we manage to win nyp... lol.. nothing to be proud of anyway.. then once again, watch my other team mates race and cheer for them.. after the race, there was this AAR(after action review).. but they call it debrief anyway..
at the debrief, everyone say out their own comments.. when its my turn, i donno wat to say, then anyhow shoot.. i doubt if anyone knows what i am driving at.. it seems tt at this debrief, many things were being shoot out.. come to think of it, i really feel guilty.. in the previous post, i say that i lag of motivation and determination to attend training, but a person who is really passionate and love this sport, will never say this kind of shit things.. come to think of it, i am just giving myself the excuse of skipping training.. then after the debrief, i really wish to change myself.. and attend each and every training wholeheartedly.. a person who wants to clinch a medal or gain something, he had to work hard for it.. if one times is not enuff, he will work 2-3 times harder for it.. this time i really hope tt i will not be a NATO(No Action Talk Only) kia.. i wanna be serious le.. other than this, discipline is also very impt.. this really shows tt i lag of discipline.. few years ago, after i passed out from NCC specialist course, i thought of how to tekan my cadets.. by askin them to do push up, spelling the DISCIPLINE word.. each alphabets 10 push up.. and will add up a total of 100 push ups.. maybe i should do this punishment myself.. should do 20 or 30 push up for each alphabets instead..
i don really like my own character.. got alot of bad points.. but bad points can be corrected, its up to myself.. all in the mind.. however, its definitely not easy.. anyway, just to say this MR 500 really let me think of alot of things.. anyway, ngee ann sprinters, u really did a good job today.. =)
Never give up...
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
today...................... feel so sian + moody + no mood.. 2 rounds of campus run, make me run till almost Knock out.. was able to complete and catch up with everyone till the very last 400m, when everyone was running on the track while i almost black out.. freaking weak... who to blame? no one but myself, for not training hard.. has been such a long time since i run till gonna black out.. i don like today performance.. totally sucks. the push up, dips, flutter kick,, crunches, all i am able to complete.. only the running part makes me completely turn off.. actually is because i cant hang on to the end(left 400m) and also my stamina lose to junior polo girls.. they can keep up with the pace while i cant. wtf.. senior liao, stamina still lose to junior polo girls.. sigh.. suck man.. i lost to HER in stamina.. i lose out to HER in the run. its time for me to wake up liao.. give me a rock now and let me bang on it. so tt i can always remind myself to WAKE UP MY BLOODY IDEA. fook myself la.. next time, i'm not gonna lag behind!!!
WEAK <--- this word very suitable for me. screw myself.. i'm a weak fark.
Never give up...
Friday, March 10, 2006
ahhh... will be away for NCC camp for this 3 days.. held at henderson sec.. sounds fun but actually ok only. its not as gd when compared to the past.. basically just attend the camp to OVERSEE only. cant do anything much. anyway, since its my holiday and i got nothing to do, might as well go there and pass time. can take this time to train up my physical with those little kids in schl. make them suffer.. lol.. anyway tt's all then.. nothing interesting.. signed off.
Never give up...
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
sorry everyone.. here is the latest update.. haha.. was kinda lazy to log in and update my blog.. sorry to my FANS out there who are always waiting to read my post.. i apologise.. my bad.. HEHE jus joking.. anyway, alot of things happen back then.. marathon, exam, assignment and more.. actually got alot of things to write, but just don feel like logging in and update.. hmmm.. finally, nows the holiday, i cant work.. so boring.. rotting at home.. but luckily got prince of tennis to watch.. a very nice anime though.. all thanx to jia ying.. save me from the trouble of downloading.. ;)
anyway, went training today.. drag myself there as usual.. something wrong with my mind.. always land training or sea training, like wanna escape from it.. but once i reach the place and starts to train, all this negative mindset seems to be gone.. y is it like tt? i think i need determination and motivation.. but where can i look for all this? i'll try to correct this dumb and stupid mindset that i have in my mind.. has been 3-4 weeks since i last ran and stepped into gym.. i find the trainig awrites la.. nt tt bad.. was jogging to bt timah nature reserve after doing 450 push and super aps.. while jogging, was quite sian, then think of a lame song.. canoeist version of army song.. lol
Training to be Canoeist,
To row for our team.
Once in our life,
Three years of our time.
Have you ever wonder, y we must row.
Because we love our team,
And we want it to be great, to be great.. HIA!!
maybe i'm too bo liao.. but who cares man.. anyway, i really envy our captain.. mr dennis. he train until very tired liao, but still push on. maybe thats the role of a captain, but he definitely does a great job.. tt's what i see in him this few training.. all this is a compliment i guess.. just hope tt i'll have a strong mental like he does.. then i guess tt's all bah.. will still update as i at home rotting.. too sian liao.. tata
Never give up...
