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feelings
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
& put your footprints on // 11:35 PM &


today went for attachment as usual.. then at around 10+, captain koh came to our cubicle and say :" ni men bei complain liao".. tt means we kena complain.. wtf sia.. kena caught for playing games and watchin movie.. khong leng la.. play game still insist on turning the volume on.. then the screen face outside somemore.. all people who wanna go drink water can see what he doing.. -.-" i only play one round after my work lo.. at least i gt slant away the screen and off volume.. the email from LOTB ask how is our project going and on two occasion, found us play game and watch movie.. the movie oso not i bring wan lo.. and last time khong leng waanted to watch.. nt like i can really stop.. then i end up watching tgt with him.. the image in front of those captain and officers all gone liao.. damn sian after hearing the news and reading the email.. but i suspect is my our branch people who lodge a complaint cux i nv really see other branch ppl or other unfamiliar ppl stepping into office when we were carrying out those "LEGAL" activities.. damn bullshit.. nxt time i gonna screw him if he do any of this dumb things..

everynight i ahve been sleeping at 1.45.. then the lack of sleep effects finally struck me.. for yesterday and today, early in the morning.. i could hardly type two sentences.. after a few word, i gt so tired that i need to rest for a few minutes.. woke up and continue to type.. after a few words, eyes closing again.. the process goes over and over again and i need to ensure that i nv type any wrong information.. sian.. i gonna have my basic discipline to slp early.. i don like the 'wanna fall asleep' feeling.. screw myself..

went to training after attachment today.. the running part ok la.. still trying to gain back my stamina.. my treps.. still very sour.. due to monday's gym.. din get to gym much though..

i saw her today.. i am suppose to forget bout her.. but each time i saw her, my mind will start to think.. i walk pass u and treat u transparent.. i nv talk to u.. i nv greet u.. but in my mind.. everything is opposite.. ur not transparent to me.. i really wan to talk to u and communicate like normal friend.. but somehow there is barrier in me.. i don dare to.. u wont know how i feel and think.. or maybe u will just think that why am i so dao or watever.. my mind is thinkin.. but my body wont move.. sighh..


Never give up...